I have never ever been under what I would call such a "powerful" demonic attack as much as I have these past few days. Especially in my home. At Night!!
I first thought I needed a full sweep of my home to get rid of some things. I thought there may be some soul ties from previous roommates living with me and unhealthy relationships.
I am believing more now, especially since last Sonday, when I had a significant beginning breakthrough with tears (previous post and thank you all for such a tremendous response) that these attacks have intensified.
Sonday night I was restless which disturbed my sleep. Then on Monday during the early part of the day, while watching and worshiping a revival rerun hosted by God TV the presence of the Lord hit me with first deep tears then laughter. So true, however brief it was for me, in His presence is fullness of joy!! It happened twice that day. These were truly an encounter with the Holy Spirit. Different and significant from any other time. Hence another breakthrough for me.
So, come Monday night I was not able to sleep. Tremendous oppression and depression and disturbing dreams plagued and woke me up early. My gut was full of fear. Pain in my body. Thoughts of death. Becoming physically sick. I pleaded the blood. Turned lights on in my home. Read the Bible. Had worship music on. The atmosphere in my home very ominous. I Could NOT wait for the sun to peek over the horizon the next morning.
My birds even sensed something going on. They have been exceptionally quiet.
Most of yesterday it was difficult getting into the Spirit. An uneasiness feeling in and around me remained.
Before attempting sleep last night, in anticipation of another enemy attack, I went to each of my rooms again in my home with anointing oil. Casting out any evil spirits in the name of Jesus. Praying in the Spirit. I slept better.
In observation, it has been four weeks now since I was let go from my job. I have seen my "good" ex-boss twice for lunch since then. (She cannot get over how well I look and full of the Spirit. She said that I have never looked so good. Even when I worked for her.) A couple of other ex-co-workers that I trust as well I have seen. Now all of a sudden more of my ex-co-workers are coming out of the wood work getting in touch with me. One's I would not think to call me, have this week. All with good intentions.
So what is wrong with good intentions you say? For the average person nothing. But, apparently lately I am not the average person anymore. (***JBR smiles***)
Pretty much these past few weeks I have been in the wilderness seeking after God's heart and enjoying my time. Desiring to be in His presence. And when I am back with "good" people that seem concerned and miss me at work, it is hard for me to deal with. Because I am thrown back into the real world full of memories and life's pain. The peace I found in seeking the Lord during this hiatus then seems to fade. My Spirit becomes troubled.
I am changing for the better and even something as nice as people wanting to see me can innocently stir up something I do not want a part of anymore. Satan can try and use this to his advantage.
So, in order to gain strength in being able to stand firm against the enemy, and keep the full armor of God on, I am really trying to limit my time with seeing certain people from my last job. Hoping not to offend them. But, I really need to do this and not be thrust backwards. I am just not that strong in my mind yet to defend off the enemy's method of attack.
All in all these recent attacks from the enemy are just proof I am gaining more ground and becoming stronger.
