This week has been a rough one for me emotionally. Today being a bit better than the other days. So I am attempting to blog.
Usually I am even keel with my depression and can cope. Depression I have struggled with most my life. On some occasions, my depression is extra trying. Bringing on added feelings of guilt and shame.
It effects my spiritual life and my desire to draw closer to God. I battle with making myself get up and go outside and not sleep all day. Combat negative depressing thoughts. My personal hygiene can suffer as well.
If I learned anything from this past year of trial after trial in my life is that the devil will NOT give up in tormenting and opposing my goal in a breakthrough to freedom.
Many times it seemed the bad out-weighed the good. That what I faced last year brought me at times into a rut of depression and despair. Only to surface a few days later, after my thinking became clearer and my dependance on God became stronger that I found myself in a better state of mind. Thank you Lord!
Understanding how God's kingdom operates and how the devil opposes my healing and progression, he will systematically try and defeat me not only with trials but the lowest of the low...... depression.
"Every time God is ready to bring us higher, there is going to be new opposition that comes against us. It could be something we've dealt with in the past that comes back against us in a stronger way than before—or something new that we've never dealt with. If we plan to progress in life, we need to know that there's a price to pay." - Joyce Meyer
