NOT FEELING IT!

Ugh! The title describes me well this day! Already went through three posts that I took off as I was not "feeling it" comfortably. I first started off with the topic of shame and what was discussed in t. yesterday. Besides my nurturing people pleasing issues, shame is high on my list to deal with also!!

But, again, what I wrote on the topic just did not sit well with me. I will and need to post about my struggles with shame, but what flowed out from me was not of the Spirit, so off it went. The time is just not right to share about this for now. Only God knows why.

LACK THEREOF

My morning walk this morning I "felt" the Lord revealed something significant to me. Even though I keep on saying I suffer from people pleasing/co-dependency, I have always felt something is missing to this puzzle with me!

I may be totally off base, but when I think of people pleasing, that goes across the board broadly. With more than one person. That is not so for me. Never has been. I always just seek out one individual and then I become defensive if I feel others are invading my space with this one person!

Even though the topic of the lack of nurturing has come up in my t. sessions, I am inclined to believe now that this is truly a significant part to my puzzle. Since I did not get the proper nurturing as a child, I may be seeking out that nurturing which comes out in the sick way of trying to people please, but with only one.

Have t. today, so this will be good to discuss further.

HOW A CHILD LEARNS

Found this truth:

If a child lives with criticism, he learns to condemn.
If a child lives with hostility, she learns to fight.
If a child lives with ridicule, he learns to be shy.
If a child lives with shame, she learns to feel guilty.
If a child lives with tolerance, he learns to be patient.
If a child lives with encouragement, she learns confidence.
If a child lives with praise, he learns to appreciate.
If a child lives with fairness, she learns justice.
If a child lives with security, he learns to have faith.
If a child lives with approval, she learns to like herself.
If a child lives with acceptance and friendship, he learns to find love in the world.
(Dorothy Law Nolte)

PARCHED

Was out of it for the most part this weekend. Emotionally and physically exhausted. This past week has not been easy. All the ups and downs and the striving to change took its toll on my body especially. The worries of having to please to be accepted!! I did hibernate. My body and mind needed to to relax.

Appreciated everyone leaving an encouraging message!

I am praying for extra strength to press on for this week as I face what I need to and not be ashamed for who I am. Maybe this prayer will encourage you as well:

Father God,
Thank you that You have promised the Lord will guide me always, not just when I am up and on track, but always. Today I lean hard on that and ask You to continue to show me the way to walk. Father, sometimes I feel like a sun-scorched land…but You promise to meet my needs even there. Today I acknowledge I need You. I am parched and I look to You to give me emotional strength… spiritual insight… and physical stamina. You even promise to strengthen my frame. Thank you Father that Your tender care encompasses all of me. Help me to draw on that today and to praise You for it!
In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.