"You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy, at Your right hand there are pleasures forevermore."
Psalm 16:11
"God comes to our lonely, anxious hearts and whispers our name. God says "I see both the fear you have of closeness and the deep longing you have to belong. I have come to comfort you and to respond to your need. I have been seeking a relationship with you. You belong. You belong to me. You are my child."

The following has touched my heart:
"The power of My vast Love can feel overwhelming. That is why many people choose to limit their knowledge of Me, keeping Me at a safe distance. How that grieves Me! People settle for mediocrity because it feels more comfortable. However, they continue to battle fear. Only My Love is strong enough to break the hold that fear has on you," -Dear Jesus, p. 36.

Thursday

OBLIVIOUS


Several times yesterday my t. had to remind me that I have and am under tremendous stress these past few weeks. (Just read my previous posts)

I knew I was having difficulty, but it really never occurred to me that I was under extreme stress.

I have a few major issues going on in my life right now. Thus in order to cope with some of the severity I am facing, I have been in survival mode and oblivious to the stress.

Tuesday

**Upate 6/21/2011 ** DIAGNOSIS

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Tuesday June 21, 2011

My mum has to remain in the hospital. They found a lesion on one of her kidneys. Doing a CAT scan tonight.

Good News: She got her appetite back.

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Monday June 20, 2011

My mum had a Echocardiogram this afternoon which showed that her heart muscle was strong. That is good. What the doctor's think that triggered this Atrial Fibrillation is the increase of one of her meds. Her water pill. That being said, they can fix it. Also was mentioned that she has protein in one of her kidneys.

But, the main concern is the loss of appetite she has been having for over three weeks now. I even had my suspicions what this could be. And when the doctor that saw her this morning, (who had a terrible bed-side manner) said to her, "your primary doctor will have to do more tests and look for cancer" that was more or less what I was thinking as well. That statement has scared her! Although the facts may state the above, I DO NOT HAVE TO CLAIM any of this! I believe in a miracle working God.

She will remain at least one more day in the hospital. May be released tomorrow. Again, thank you for your prayers of support.
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Thank you all for your prayers!!

Called the paramedics around 8:00 p.m. last night. My mum first was taken to the ER where she spent the next six hours there getting her vitals stable. Then having her finally admitted to the hospital at 2:00 a.m. this morning. The diagnoses thus far is:

Atrial Fibrillation. Which is cardiac arthythmia. Abnormal heart beat. He b/p and heart rate was very high and erratic. She was off the charts last night. They injected her with a blood thinner (Coumadin). In her stomach. Works faster. Although this may be a procedure for her down the line she will have to do. Do not know. Will hopefully find out more when I go shortly to the hospital.


Sunday

911 ADMITTING MUM TO HOSPITAL

Admitting mum to hospital Please pray

Thursday

A little update. Mum had a good night. So, no emergency or whatever today. It is day to day.

Had t. today. Things were brought out into the light to help me cope better not only with my mum but with PPP and work.

Thank you for your support and encouragement and prayers.