It is those secrets that we keep buried deep within that can eat us alive. Known fact that disease and illness are much more likely to develop and fester many years.
I have had my share of secrets. Being sexually abused by my older brother when I was 8 or 9 years old. Surviving the divorce of my parents and the split up of my family when I was around the same age of being abused by my brother. The critical spirit I obtained from my father and mother which prompted feelings of unworthy, and loathing of myself. Unhealthy relationships later on in life. The pain of loneliness, shame, guilt, condemnation, which resulted in depression, sadness and hopelessness. I was such an angry and unhappy person. My little one was so afraid to be seen. She had been hurt so terribly growing up.
When I began t. a few years ago, I divulged many things to my t. I never ever told anyone. Because of fear, denial and who would believe me?
It is true when they say that if you are able to share with someone(s) who will not be critical, judgmental and who is trustworthy, doing so releases inside relief and a sort of freedom that, "finally someone else knows and understands."
Releasing those secrets...really speaking them out loud...that is powerful. It is the first step to freedom.
ReplyDeleteJBR well put. Being able to express oneself to another is a giant step to freedom. You've done remarkably well on your path. I'm proud of you. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteSo happy that you found someone to tell your secrets to. Secrets that a child should never have to have. I admire you , JBR.
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So powerful is the spoken word!
ReplyDeletePraying God's blessings upon you, sweet JBR!
Love and hugs~
Laura
I KNOW WHAT YOUR TALKING ABOUT ALL TO WELL. TAKES A LONG TIME TO BUILD UP TRUST WHEN YOU'VE BEEN HURT AND ABUSED.
ReplyDeleteUsually, I don't like to read posts while a music is playing in the background. Opposite just now as I am reading your post, the intro notes hit my heart and turned up the music "Great I Am". Blessed by this JBR (Thanks)...Secrets...that no matter how well-kept, He knows. And I'm glad we have Him, the Great I Am, Who is able...
ReplyDeleteBelieve me JBR, it was not easy to face those hypocrites from work. Only by His grace...I don't know where my battle is leading. My plans are all a secret to my enemies but this morning, I am tired. I reminded myself...He knows it from the start. He knows where it'll lead me. I just want Him, nothing else...I'm glad with my battle, and when my lips utter "I am tired." He's quick to whisper, "No...You'll be strong...I am..."
Praying His strength, peace, healing for you sister. Thank you for always encouraging me and blessing me with your faith. God bless.
we all need someone like that in our lives...i am privledged to share those freedom moments with many of the kids i work with...keep stepping JBR
ReplyDeleteThere is power in living truthfully, never having to look around corners or hide things. Wasted energy creeps up on us.
ReplyDeleteThe truth will set you free, and you will be free indeed!
ReplyDeletePraying for you hon. :)
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JBR you're so right. I know my family holds many secrets. Despising secrets. Shameful ones.
ReplyDeleteWe aren't built for secret keeping and thank God it is so. Praise Him for always being there and giving me others to help me sort it all out!
ReplyDeleteI've heard it said in AA "You're just as sick as your secrets" and I certainly found that to be true in my life. I pray that God will continue to heal you from the secrets of your past. Prayers for you, JBR.
ReplyDeleteoh yeah, secrets have so much power... until you share them. hugs!!!
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