All my life I have struggled with self worth. My past has contributed to that. Coming from a broken alcoholic home at such a young age. Full of judgement and criticism. Leading to shame. Lack of nurturing, attention from my parents. Not having anyone or any means to express the emotional pain I was going through along with the trauma that was unfolding before me. Only turning within. Stuffing my pain. Searching out survival techniques to get me through life in order to function as best I could. All of these methods establishing what little JBR was to become in order to survive.
But,
Now learning that what others and what I have believed about myself negatively is not truth. Even though I struggle and continue to work on my self worth issues and receiving and giving of "love," I am depending more on the Word of God. What it says about me. Who I truly am, and who I truly am in Christ.
Applying these truths will take time. If any of you know me from my readings, you know I prefer instant healing. In fact who would not? But, as I have been told many times, "what has happened to me in the past did not developed over night." So my healing will have to take time as well.
JBR you've come a long way. I get excited when I read about how God is working in your heart. Changing you daily. One day at a time. You're learning and setting an example for all of us. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteYou're right I think we all would prefer instantaneous healing but we are learning things through the process that we never gain otherwise.
ReplyDeleteOne day at a time, one hour at a time, sometimes one minute at a time, he is with us, helping us to get through it all.
ReplyDeleteGod bless
HI JBR - those old tapes playing in your head can only cause more harm. Replace all those with the newer truths of your worth and beauty and POWER!!
ReplyDeleteLoving you
Gail
peace......
It takes time to learn a new way to look at things. Thank God He is patient and therapy helps.
ReplyDeleteI KNOW YOUR GETTING IT JBR. SEEING THAT THERE'S A PROCESS TO MOST EVERYTHING. GOOD AND BAD AS WELL. YOUR ON THE RIGHT PATH TO YOUR HEALING.
ReplyDeleteWe all prefer instant everything now...but we have to wait on many things...maybe it makes us be better for waiting???
ReplyDeleteYou are really growing. ((HUGS))
ReplyDeleteI think I have told you this before. I feel like Im reading my own words when you write. I think we have a lot in common with our childhood, except for the alcohol thing.
ReplyDeleteI actually start counseling tomorrow to stop picking at the scabs in my brain,which opens them up and Im tired of it
I am old enough now that I need to just move on to the future,talk about the past to my counselor and not look back no matter what!
LOL> Instant healing - I know this wish ever so well. Considering how much time I had spent being dysfunctional I simply wanted to be healed and done with it. And please not so much pain and struggles on the way....
ReplyDeleteIt is good however to know that whilst I was so very dysfunctional for so many years, it doesnt take the same amount of time to heal. You have worked wonders and you truly can be proud of you.
Love and hugs
My friend the part about healing not happening over night helps me. Instant healing is also on my priority list. P.S. love the picture.
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