In t. yesterday we discussed how I have improved in believing that I am more confident with relating to people. Including God.
I grew up with a father who was really not there emotionally for me and very critical. Which turned into feeling that I could not do anything right and that I was not of interest. He gave off the vibes of and even said to my mum "Children should be seen and not heard." His actions shut me down emotionally.
As I heal in "who I truly am," my voice is slowly coming back. Even though at times "fear" takes over, as I still find myself believing that I am not that important to be heard. By others and even God. Still relating at times things faster than a Gazelle. Swallowing half of my words. In order to get it over with in hopes that people will not become bored or critical.
WHAT A CUTE PICTURE JBR. EVEN THE CUB IS HAVING TROUBLE IN HIS OWN DEN FOR SOMEONE TO LISTEN TO IT. GLAD YOUR MOVING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. SORRY FOR YOUR UPBRINGING. MUST'VE BEEN MISERABLE FOR YOU.
ReplyDeleteHi hon,
ReplyDeleteI was just reading in one of my devotions this morning about how God hears us all the time. Even when we think He is not listening to us He is.
I sometimes think that He doesn't hear me and then I get this check into my spirit that tells me He does and the fear of who God is snaps me out of my 'pouting' moment.
Lifting you up to Him today.
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Hi JBR,
ReplyDeleteThis was always a difficult area for me too. I felt like I had no voice and that it was smothered down inside me. Like you, I wondered how others or God could possibly want to hear me. What a long way we've come! Your post is very insightful (they always are) and I pray God continues to reveal to you how precious you really are, both to Him and others.
I hope you are feeling better, my friend. My thoughts and prayers are with you!
JBR - Everyone has a voice, speak yours softly and confidently as it means much to many.
ReplyDeleteLove to you
Gail
peace....
I have similar issues with my father JBR, and I struggle with my voice also. Often literally, I find my voice will suddenly be shaking or I will be whispering. Great that you are making these connections and are on the road to more self-confidence. take care
ReplyDeletehow such 'ancient' words still hold power today. i hear you, i fully understand.
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