Venturing to what has been a daily occurrence (weather permitting) of enjoying my tranquil pool time at where I live; talking and communing with my Heavenly Daddy; I found out this morning's pool time was anything but tranquil. Pounding the surface with my fists. Good I was the only person in and at the pool.
Yesterday's t. session revealed, (see previous post), I still hold a lot of anger issues of the way I was treated when I was let go from my job seven months ago. I had not dealt with the pain of feeling "rejected," "used," and "worthless."
This is all good everyone. Not to worry. Just going through the anger/grieving process.
Though God has begun ministering in me, I feel so very fragile now. Not wanting to have my anger spill out over on innocent people I care about.
So glad your enjoying the pool. You will work through these issues. I think that anyone who is let go from a position would have those same feelings. I know I would.
ReplyDeleteYou are doing healthy things by recognizing it, giving it to the Lord, and venting in the pool. My prayers go with you~
ReplyDeleteI think taking it out on the pool water is wonderful...go underwater and scream too. It feels freeing :)
ReplyDeleteMay your heart always be filled with His peace and joy. Take care.
ReplyDeleteJBR let the process begin. You're right where you're supposed to be. In his care. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteVision - the ability to see - Victory - the results of resting in the Power of the blood of Jesus Christ ....the cup inside and outside shall be cleansed!
ReplyDeleteit's huge props
ReplyDeleteto become unafraid of your anger
....i'm just learning slow,
changing slow
to not fear and draw back
from looking at
and feeling my anger
and it sometimes feels like a stormy sea!
SO grateful our shepherd
is strong enough to take it:)
-Jennifer
That's a good way to release anger, Grace. It's when we turn it inward that causes so many problems.
ReplyDeletePraying for you, Grace.