"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Thursday, May 07, 2009


Been a rough couple of days for me, ever since digging deeper in t. on Tuesday. Had group also tonight so I am tired, exhausted and brain dead to say the least. Some times I wonder if I have enough space in my cerebellum to retain everything?

In one of my early morning walks this week, I came across a snail. Not unusual. Snail season is in, and many a time I find myself moving some of the snails out of harms way so a 1000 pound car in the next minute or two would not drive over it and snuff the life from its slimy existence! Now if it was a cockroach, different story. Anyway, the compassion I have for such a small yukky thing, I can only hope one day that I could apply that much grace on myself.


  1. Just keep taking things one day at a time and maybe soon you will get there.

  2. In one of my poems, I happen--while walking along the river bank--to meet "...a snake, a snail, and a shell. And I spoke with them:....." Thanks for the memory, JBR!

    I wish there was some magical way I could give you some of the joy, freedom, and happiness which I have found here. NOTE: It was not always thus!

    Blessings to you!

  3. You can only
    love your neighbor-
    as you love

    2 sides - one coin!


  4. Give it time...you will. I'm even betting you'll like yourself quite a lot. (Hugs)Indigo

  5. It's harder to apply it to yourself, but you've got to try at least. You deserve it so much more.

  6. All this hard work and effort will pay off, JBR, once your brain stretches and lets it all settle in. You're such an inspiration (((JBR)))

  7. Dear One, you are so open, aithentic in your struggles. I cnat imagine that you wouldnt make it. The time will come. Big hug, Paula xx

  8. You'll eventually be able to extend this same compassion towards yourself. Your struggles are not in vain, they will lead you where you need to be.

  9. stuck-in-the-middleMay 08, 2009

    you'll get there one day JBR! Hang on.

  10. I believe God blesses those who take care of his little creatures and will bless you richly for your small kindnesses.

  11. Compassion is a very hard thing for some people. I know I can and do struggle with compassion from time to time. I chime in with everyone here....you will get there.

  12. little by little things will click into place.

  13. AnonymousMay 08, 2009

    JBR, I too struggle with compassion. For me, it is a foreign feeling that I'm just learning to feel towards others. It seems to be even harder to feel towards myselves. Sounds like you're moving along with healing...sorry its been as hard as it has between regular T and thursday group T. It is hard to deal with this stuff and hard to heal, but it is worth the effort to become whole inside and out.

  14. I'm with ya there, lady. Sometimes I feel like my brain is going to explode. That was a good reminder/lesson, wasn't it? We really need to apply compassion to ourselves. Wish I could say that I was good at that already. I hope you get some rest; sounds like you need some.

  15. I just saw your comment on my blog. Thank you so much for your encouraging words and prayers for us during this difficult time. ~~jocelyn andersen

  16. As always, so much appreciate all of your comments. Just your encouragement alone keeps me going no matter what faces me down the line, as I am sure visa versa. We are all in this together! Thank you!!

  17. Hi
    I do not know how you can touch those nasty slimy things..lol I am sure in time you will be easier on yourself it's all work in progress. Sorry you have had a rough week :( I hope you can have some peace this weekend.

  18. I just wanted to say thank you so much for all of your encouraging comments. It helps so much to know that there is someone else out there who just knows, and cares. hugs to you, my sweet friend.

  19. AnonymousMay 08, 2009

    Thanks for coming by and for the encouragement. I pray that God will send The comforter to you to carry you through the deep waters ((JBR))

    Finally Free

  20. Finally Free-Thanks for the visit and prayer, so much appreciated! Hugs back to ya!

    Broken-Dear one, I appreciate you also as we both go on our journeys.

    Tabby-Fortunately, I grab them by the shell and they retract and then I move them away. Thank you for your concern. I wish I did have the w/e to myself, but it is Mother's Day so will have to deal with that.