"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Sunday, May 03, 2009


Was debating if I should write anything tonight, as really I am not in any mood to share anything. I already suffer from social isolation IRL, so to have me shut down with my blog friends… that would not be a good thing. So, I am putting forth major effort here to type something. As some of us have stated more than once on our own blogs to why we may have been MIA, I am probably no different by saying, “I feel I am struggling big time, a burden, whining, exhausted and just cannot get my act together?”

Naturally, with all that being said, I know I have the tools to pull me out of this “present rut.” Sheez, there are over 65 entries referring to them here. Most I have written myself!

God being my Master Tool!

But it is hard……


  1. Prayers are lifted as you work through this time...

  2. Sorry you're struggling so much right now. Even if you can't use the tools you know right now, just hang on and know this can't last. Things will get better. Trust God on that one thing if nothing else. Hang in there.

  3. we are glad you havent shut the door on bloggers, bu we get the closing down feeling

  4. AnonymousMay 03, 2009

    So sorry you're having a rough go. I have been a bit out of it myself. It seems sometimes when we need others the most we withdraw. I do hope things brighten for you soon. I'll add my voice to the others-- hang in there.

  5. Count these joy when you are falling into various trials. Go and claim His grace - that will make you lack of nothing.

    Blessings to you,

  6. REALly, JBR, when you visit my blog, from your comments I would never dream you are an isolator. I was reclusive, maybe still am, to an extent...but I forced myself long time ago to just "get out there".

    One method, was I sttod at the door of every meeting I attended, and that way got to know everyone, and give them all a smiling remark to begin their day--and mine!

    But you'll make it, however it happens. I know this!

  7. Hello and thank you for visiting my blog. I just helped myself to your darling Real blog award; it's beautiful and meaningful.
    Ruts are horrid. No doubt about it. But they are not insurmountable like cages or brick walls or even stony negligence. I think of my ruts as parts of a labyrinth that I need to solve with patience and a peaceful mind.
    I hope this week begins well and gets better from there!

  8. AnonymousMay 04, 2009

    It really is o.k not to be o.k. It really is o.k to admit that you are not coping, that you have no idea what it is that you are doing. Admitting that you are not coping is not a sign of weakness, it's one of the biggest shows of strength and bravery.

  9. I am sorry you are struggling so much. Many of us has been there as you have said.

    Your blog has been such a blessing since i started reading it. Yes you have tools, and God is the best one, but it so hard to use those tools when one is in such a rut. When i was at my worst, I would go sit with God quietly. Not really saying anything, just being in a special place, allowing him to sit side by side with me and allowing my spirit just to be with him. If you have such a spot, and it sounds like the woods touch your soul, going out and sitting with him can be very soothing.

    I hope you feel better soon. Thank you for not shutting down, and sharing how difficult this time is for you right now.

    Hugs sent your way.

  10. stuck-in-the-middleMay 04, 2009

    Happy you did not leave us JRB. Keep hanging on.

  11. So glad that you haven't shut us out. I also hope that you take comfort from knwoing that there are so many of us out here rooting for you.
    Thinking of you.

  12. You are not a burden nor are you whining so please don't think these things.

  13. Thanks for stopping by my blog this morning. I have enjoyed visiting yours too (Lurking for a few days actually, Lol!) We have some things in common, such as difficult past and loving God. I will be checking back!

    Blessings of peace and all that is good!

  14. Praying for you JBR! Thank you for checking in with me... I'm so very sorry you are struggling. My prayer also is that you are surrounded by comfort during this difficult time.

  15. ...sometimes doing nothing, is doing something. time, girl, time.

  16. As you said to me when I needed to hear it.Take your time we will be here when you return,My prayers are with you.

  17. I don't consider you a whiner at all. But, I can relate to what you're expressing here. I, myself, am feeling a bit stronger the past several days. So...here are some strong, safe hugs. ((((((((((((((((((((((JBR))))))))))))))))))

  18. Take it from me, there is no escaping life. Learning to live life on life's terms is the hardest thing out there. I can honestly say it doesn't always get stuck on the bad days, there are a few really good days thrown in for measure.

    Isolation never helped either (Hold up hand) yeah, I tried that one too. Sometimes you just need a friendly voice to say, hey...I'm thinking of you today. I am you know...(Hugs)Indigo

  19. Hi there!

    Now don't feel like you have to write everyday that is more strain than you need to deal with. I used to feel like I was obligated to do a post everyday, but hey my life aint that exciting....LOL. Write when you want to.