"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009


I am taking the next three days off from work, starting today. I planned taking these three days off three weeks ago, having no plans whatsoever, just knowing when the time came around I would welcome the days off. Sure enough that is the case. My body and mind are tired, and need replenishing.

Although I did have t. today, which I chose to as it is always beneficial for me regardless of the outcome. The getting intouch with the stuffed teddy bear and now bunnies will be a process down the line in order to connect with my heart. I feel so very disconnected in this area, I cannot begin to tell you and it hurts that I missed out so much that I cannot even relate to precious comforting animals. I know it will take time.

Still, there are glimmers of the ‘real me’ emerging, especially when it comes to humor and finding realness in ‘real people.’ The other side of the coin is the fake people continue to turn me off. Hopefully, down the line I will have more compassion for people like that, as I was once them.

You know since becoming more real these days, I sometimes can be a little too honest with judging people. Just need to be careful and have a sensitive spirit with voicing some of the things in order not to offend or puff myself up.


  1. I understand completely. Fake people still drive me crazy. GOD is still working on me in this area. I try my best to be compassionate, but sometimes it is difficult.

    Hope you have a wonderful few days off work.
    Blessings, andrea

  2. Please, please, please...Just Be real (still do not know your name or email--I'd rather "E" a note like this one. Rejesct it, if you like, of course!)

    Girl, I did not receive one solitary thing from you yesterday, the last one was about "fuzzy ducks" or something like that...on July 19.

    I would NEVER reject--or delete--a posting from you, because well, I just wouldn't. I hope you know this all the way into your heart, because oit's coming from mine. So please if you have something from yesterday, please re-send it, and it WILL be posted or answered.

    I DO have an automatic,Spam filter...but I get to read them first.

    Please know that you are loved, in Naples Florida, as well as in many, many other places in the blogging world and out of it.
    Hugs from

  3. Stevie, you misread my comment.

    I said I did not post a comment yesterday as you stated in your post you were calling it quits and did not want anyone to respond. Still I noticed that a comment was delted in that post, as it showed deleted by administrator (which was not mine, as I did not post anything). That is what I was referring to. You need NOT worry about what you think you did, as you did nothing wrong by me!! I was just simply stating that I did not post as I did not want to be deleted. I hope this made sense.

    Andrea,thank you for your comment. Appreciate the kindness.

  4. Fake people don't have much of a life.

  5. Really insightful stuff here. As I get healthier, fake people are less and less attractive. And I recognize them more quickly. But at the same time, I identify with not wanting to be too judgmental. I find that some of my own shame comes from assuming people are judging me as harshly as I have judged others. It's a good wake-up call.

  6. Eli, great point about assuming people are judging yourself as harshly as you judge others. Makes sense. Certainly a wake-up call.

    True Madison.

  7. I find refreshment in your honesty. It's hard to relate to people who don't share their real self, but I wonder if for some reason along the way they become that way because they've themselves have been hurt by someone.

    I feel in like it's always best to be honest, it saves a lot of heartache down the road. Yet so many are afraid to open their hearts up to that.

    My sister was once a very open person, but since she's been hurt by so many others she now has this thick wall erected around herself. She's not fake just very disbelieving of others motives.

    It's a sad reality of life. I appreciate your post.

  8. Missy, I appreciate you. Thank you for sharing about your sister. It is a shame that she got hurt in the process of trying to be herself. Hopefully one day, those walls can once again be let down for her. Appreciate your sharing dear one, thank you.

  9. I am glad you are Real. Take the time off and be kind to yourself.

  10. Wanda, your visit is appreciated, thank you!!

  11. I love you for being real sweetie.

  12. AnonymousJuly 22, 2009

    To bad that you can't relate to your stuffed animals. Hopefully one day God will open your heart to feel again.
    Fake people turn me off to. Your not alone.
    God Bless.

  13. I enjoy coming here, reading about your journey. You are "real." Sometimes, I feel I am too real, and it is disconcerting to people. It makes them uncomfortable to not have the cushioning of all the blah, blah that passes for human interaction. I found I had to tone it down a bit with casual acquaintances.

  14. Lou, glad you enjoy my blog, I appreciate your comment and the understanding that it is better to be real than not.

    Onthewaynow, thank you for your concern. I do too desire one day (I cannot tell you how much) connecting to my inner child!!!!!!

    Denise, you are always kind with your sincere remarks. I appreciate it very much, thank you!

  15. JBR- I try to be as real and honest as I can, but I have no filter so sometimes it don't come out so well. Forgive me if ever I offend. ~rick

  16. Rikkij, you need not worry. You have never offended me. Appreciate your honesty! ♥

  17. Nothing real can be threatened.
    Nothing unreal exist.

  18. AnonymousJuly 22, 2009

    If Christ all, and in all, then what is it to be fake? Does anyone really know who they truly are? How do you know the real you, is really you? I think I am learning that there is healthy people and sick people...and some people are sicker than others. I guess it all about helping people find their true identity in Christ so that they can become healthy, whole and saved.

  19. Welcome both ZenCaroline and Brother. Thank you for sharing your views. Blessings.

  20. Fake people are certainly hard to deal with. I have my share at work. I more or less just let them be themselves, but don’t confide in any personal matters wtih them. There’s no point if the’re not going to be honest.

  21. A caring GuyJuly 23, 2009

    What honesty and depth. People that are fake don't get into my book. I've spent many years putting on a mask to get people to like me. All the effort was not worth it in the end. The friendships didn't last. The struggle to gain attention was all in vain. So I can spot a mile away a faker and when I see them coming I go the opposite way. Can't say I understand exactly your pain.
    I hope the pain you're experiencing with the disconnect will connect soon for you.

  22. I know how hard it is to just be real after going through hell and not losing your trust in people.
    I commend you for being real here. It's a great start and something I have found recently that I needed to do also.
    Praying for you.

  23. That is good we sometimes need an off.
    and at the same time recharge ourselves.

    Nice post!. You always have the voice of truth.
    Take care always,

  24. Regina, Knee and Strawberry thank you for your encouragement and visit!
    A caring Guy, appreciate your first time visit, thank you for your kind words. Appreciate it.

  25. Sweetie, have you eve visted my blog at http://shortybearsplace.blogspot.com/

  26. AnonymousJuly 23, 2009

    I like your blog. Googled about people being real and your blog came up. Wanted to comment on your sincere approach to hard times. All the best.

  27. Anonymous, thank you for googling and finding this blog. Thank you for your comment.

    Denise, thank you for your visit. I have seen your blog that you mentioned, and also the Lighthouse one. Will post soon. Thank you for the reminder dear one.

  28. stuck-in-the-middleJuly 23, 2009

    Fakey people are hard to deal with I agree. Hang in there JBR~

  29. Being real is a difficult process. Especially for someone who has dealt with so much pain in their lifetime. You are an incredible inspiration. My biggest pet peeve is fake or two-faced folks. I never could understand what they believe they can accomplish in their life by not being themselves.

  30. AnonymousJuly 23, 2009

    To be real: Fake people are still one of MY biggest weaknesses. It drives me plain batty to see others get by on a lie or persona that is not the real person they are. Worse, when they hide it behind well spoken scripture. Speaking scriptures doesn't make you a better a christian. Just a better "speaker". It drives me nuts.... i'd like to meet some honest to pete real people! Love your blog, still investigating it. Thank you for having me.

  31. That you cannot relate to "precious comforting animals" breaks my heart. Until I entered therapy, I didn't realize my attachment to all the wonderful animal friends in my life was because I didn't receive any from anybody else.

    I hope you have the chance to experience the absolute adoration of an animal. I wonder if my attachment to live furry friends made it so easy for me to imagine that "Booker" is so wonderful, too. (he is a teddy bear)