"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Friday, October 30, 2009


I have been off from work these past few days. Originally I was just going to take Wednesday and Thursday, but took Friday off as well because.......

I am calm.

Something I have not been in awhile. I craved this. My body has craved this for a long while now. Why, well, because I am not exposed to the real world.

I do not feel the need to pressure myself to perform to gain acceptance, or worry about anything. I am so comfortable in my 'own world' (but at the same time detesting the isolation), I hate to return to the real world in a few days.

All the while confirming that I still I have a-ways to go with my recovery.

God still has been very present in my time off! We have had some really good days! Worshipping in the Spirit full blast! Having a BigMac together. And at the same time He gently reminding me about the freedom that awaits me!

From time to time I have been given glimpses of how freeing my life could be. No more dreading the real world, no more people pleasing, no more shame and guilt, no more worrying or having a schedule or time table, no more anything!!

I look forward to the day that the 'calm' I have been experiencing these past few days in isolation, will become the norm one day in the real world also!

That then will be freedom!!


  1. Beautiful to read this morning.

  2. stuck-in-the-middleOctober 30, 2009

    JBR this post is so very touching. A big mac with God. How intimate. Hang in there!

  3. Calm is to be thankful for.

  4. Those personal times with God can be enlightening. Enjoy the rest of time that you two have with one another without the outside pressure you talk about. God Bless.

  5. I'm glad that you're having some "calm" time. I especially like your choice of picture today. It seems appropriate to this entry of yours. :)

  6. May God pour calmness all over your life sweetie.

  7. He is our peace...I'm glad you're having a restful time in Him. Have a great weekend to you. God bless.

  8. wow, i'm so happy to hear this!

  9. Father God, you are the Prince of Peace.........in you we take refuge!

    Continuing to storm the gates of heaven with prayer and praises on your behalf!


  10. I am seeking total freedom myself, so I can sort of relate. I'm reading this book called "Satan's Dirty Little Secret" by Steve Foss. It's been very helpful in revealing the plan of the enemy to keep us feeing insecure & inferior. I highly recommend it. I pray that you will experience the same peace & presence of God as you venture out in the world again. May it be like Peter walking on water, as long as he kept his eyes on Jesus. God bless!

  11. Thank you all for your comments. Angie, sounds like an interesting and helpful book your are reading, thank you for sharing. Laura, appreciate very much your prayers, thank you. Shadow, Rcubes, Denise, thank you for your continual support and prayers. Oh Sew Good, thank you for your comment. The pictures I pray about, and look through a lot until the one that hits me in my gut saying "this is the one," is the one that I post. Secretia, stuck, Jen and Onthewaynow, thank you too for your encouragement and support.

  12. I love that feeling of peace and calmness. I wish I had it all the time too...but it comes and goes like all feelings. Blessings and wishes for another day of serenity!

  13. I too am comfortable in my own world. I have to really gear myself up to be with others but when I do....it's always good. Enjoy the time. Get stronger. Sarah

  14. Sarah, thank you. I know I am getting stronger each day, regardless of setbacks. All part of the journey.

    Kay, thank you for your kind words!

  15. Even freedom can be scary, so take your time. When I seek 'freedom' I seek guidance also. It IS a "we" program, after all!

    Good post. Thank you.

    Love and PEACE!

  16. calm - I love it when that happens. I remember a day, not too long ago, where I felt at peace, completely at peace. I was so happy I cried.
    I hope this feeling will stay with you.
    hugs xx

  17. Zan, appreciate your comment, thank you for stopping by again!!
    Stevie, time is all I have now, huh? Thank you.
    GGG, thanks for dropping by and your encouragement.

  18. God is so amazing!!! I pray that you find that peace in the "real world" very soon. GOD BLESS YOU!!!

  19. Experiencing the calm in the storm. Many storms in life. One this will happen if you continue on Gods path.

  20. I am so glad you feel calm JBR! It can be so soothing and peaceful. Every bit of that you feel just reaffirms that you are making progress to freedom! Yay! <3

  21. One of my most favorite guotes is this one ...

    "Calmness is always Godlike."
    -Ralph waldo Emerson.

    Isn't that a wonderful quote!

    Being calm is a blessing!

    Bless you!


  22. Oppps typo...meant quotes ... sorry...

  23. So happy you expereince some calm and even more tough your awareness that you spot glimpses of how your freedom feels. It will increase and you will feel free more often - alone that thought is calming ;-)) Love from Germany, Paula

  24. I love the serenity of being in my "own world".. time to reflect, to think. It's fortunate and reviving to have those special moments, like chicken soup for the soul. I'm glad you have a few days off, much needed time to yourself. Enjoy, find peace, and allow his Spirit to envelope you in love and affection. *Hugs*

  25. One day that freedom will be yours no doubt! This is a nice post.

  26. You are speaking to my heart and saying things I am working so hard to feel and be... thank you! And blessings in your calm.

  27. I get up very early here on the Ponderosa and enjoy the sunrise feeling the calmness of the morning. It sets my day and centers me. It's just God, me and the cows. Simple peace.

    Have a terrific weekend filled with calmness and peaceful moments!!! God bless.....

  28. Tranquil thoughts... lovely.

    Be still, and know that I am God...

  29. Welcome Debby, thank you for your comment! Nezzy, Imperfect Perfection, Strugglefree, DreamDancer, Paula, Margie, IK, DeeDee, Diane, thank you all for your comments!!! Nezzy your Ponderosa sounds absolutely beautiful. IP, glad this post ministered to you.