In t. today, the majority of the time was spent on how I perceive certain things that are hindering my progress to healing. In order to advance, I need to redefine a lot of my thinking perception. That scares me. Scares me because of the many years I have thought one certain way and to have to change my thinking to a healthier way of life feels out of the ordinary. But necessary!
I put limits on "God" to what should and should not be. Which blocks what He wants to show me, learn from and then eventually be able to move on to the next step.
And my dear bloggie friends, you play a HUGE part in my recovery that you have no idea about! Even I am discovering how much of a BIG part you play in my recovery. The actual words you use in your comments to me, your individual posts on your own blogs are all so significant to my healing. It is becoming apparent to me in talking it out with my t. how God is using you all to show me the areas that I still need to work on especially in the receiving department. Receiving your compassion, and your 'love.'
This 'next part' may sound strange to some. Hopefully I can get my point across without sounding 'off the wall.' Even though I have never met any of you IRL, that does not stop you from being human, correct? Part of my redefining is to accept you who are on the other end of this computer, despite not having tangible evidence of seeing and touching you IRL that you are just as real as I am. And just as important as if I were to meet you IRL!
Big hugs to you dear one, I understand what you are trying to say.
ReplyDeleteSo correct girl. At the end of each and every comment is a human with their own issues. Not one is perfect or has it as together as we would like everyone to believe. My heart and prayers are with you as you travel this journey. As you know, you have a world~wide support system in your blogsisters.
ReplyDeleteGod bless you and may you have a very Merry Christmas!!!
Don't worry. I know where you're coming from. I do understand your wanting proof. The more its close to you, in your hand, in person the easier it is to belive. I know exactly where you're coming from, exactly. Wow.
ReplyDelete(((Hugs))) and Merry Christmas JBR!
ReplyDeleteBlessings, GG
I HAVE AN AWARD FOR YOU AT MY BLOG.
ReplyDeleteIn Real Life...are we ALL asking questions, seeking solutions, and growing as the result of what others write. And I think it is a MARVELOUS thing, this blog world to which I was brought.
ReplyDeleteI simply had NO IDEA of the warmth, the friendliness, the helpfulness, sincerity, the LOVE which I have found here.
Imagine, I have listed 150 people who at one time or another read my trivial trash.
YOU, my girl...WOW! YOU have 319 People on your "follower" list. I seldom notice those things, too busy commenting or writing, or reading.
I can say that I get little else done.
Didn't mean to hit the ENTER key that time. Wanted first to wish you and your loves a CHEERFUL Christmas full of the JOY OF LIVING!
ReplyDeleteLove,
Steve E
I wish you a wonderful Christmas! and a Blessed New Year ahead.
ReplyDeleteCheers!
Hugs to you JBR. I may not understand your issues totally, but know this, you are certainly a bright light among us.
ReplyDeleteLife is so much better when we do it together. Any comments I leave, are the same thing I would say IRL. Your journey helps the rest of us on ours as well. We're in this together.
ReplyDeleteI'm not afraid of redefining. I just don't want people to use me anymore.
ReplyDeleteThere are some people who owe me money and I will get what I am owed one way or the other.
And yes, I have faith God will be there for me.
The realization that you have the power to control how you feel and how you perceive life and how you perceive others and and how you see God is a powerful gift. In real life, for me, JBR, it was life changing. No longer was I adrift on the sea of emotions, I was the captain of my ship and God's hand helps me guide it through the stormy seas to quiet waters. Praying that your t. helps you find your way also.
ReplyDeletethese little 'god shots' in the blogging world are amazing. i read your post on perception and in my therapy session we discussed the same things something my t. told me to look up was 'johari's window' i think i spelled it right. and anyway this window is about perception and how your brain processes thoughts and memories, both good and bad, then how you see yourself and how others see you.
ReplyDeletefor those who have had a lot of trauma in their lives there is this thing called emdr i think it stands for eye movement something but it is a form of therapy that helps process events for someone like me who numbed them with dope, i now have to go through and process them.
this is supposed to help me to not stay angry or 'flood' when in an argument. i am scared too, because sometimes i leave therapy just really raw and emotional and think 'was this really necessary?' you know it feels sometimes like watching a jerry springer show where they pick at these toxic issues on air and never resolve them!! what was the point!!!
reaching out, here in cyber space, who would have guessed the healing i feel!! and that is why i use my picture it may be a bit dangerous, but i like to just be me, tangible and real. i got a christmas card in the mail from a blogger i never even met before. he is awesome 'cliff' of wixy fame.
great post, it really hit home with me. thanks for sharing, merry christmas
YOur post shines a lite in my soul. I've been abused in the past and react certain ways that I've always questioned. YOur posts on your blog share some insite. Thank you. Merry Christmas.
ReplyDeleteMerry Christmas and Happy New Year.
ReplyDeleteThank you.
ReplyDeleteOftentimes we want to take control cos we think we know better...if we hold on to the reins how will we ever let ourselves BE LED which is what we pray for. We need to let go and let him guide us.
ReplyDeleteSt Catherine of Siena reflected 'Many want to go ahead of Christ not after him - by laying out a way to their own specifications. They seek to serve God and obtain virtue without effort.
But they deceive themselves for Christ is "the way"'
Praying for your inner peace dear.
BM
Look at Jesus in his humanity and allow his humanity to show us what it really means to be human.
ReplyDeletei totally understand what you're saying...
ReplyDeleteWow, JBR. Always here for you.
ReplyDeleteI identify so much with you RBG. I too limit God cause I"m afraid too much. And like you, blogging buddies have been a huge part of my healing from the shame that has crippled me for so long. I am so grateful for technology. Tons of hugs. Sarah
ReplyDeleteYou may receive unlimited amounts of good will!
ReplyDeleteSecretia
My bloggy friends are the world to me. Some I have met in real life and many I have not. I treat all the same. Hope you eventually understand this.
ReplyDeleteThere is no place that the unity from God's love is too far to be touched. I feel that with some of my bloggy friends...like you. God bless.
ReplyDeleteNothing goes unoticed by God. He knew we couldn't be with one another as you say IRL. Not saying that is why the internet was born, but He knew it would be a vital tool in His plan. Go with it JBR. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteJBR: What we see in your blogs is your heart, and that is what God sees when He looks at each of us. What you are hearing from your blog friends, is THEIR hearts, is response. You are a blessing to so many in your honesty, Everyone has needs, questions, hurts and joys. Isn't is a comfort that our God knows all of that, and He would know it all if He never saw our face... He is a heart seeker. That's where truth lives.
ReplyDeleteLove and Merry Christmas!
Sonja
I've been lurking a while now reading your entries. What intrigues me is that we're so much alike. I've been hesitant to comment on your blog until now. You touched me with your honesty in your writings and in particular this entry. I've been a loner most my life and its' hard for me to have friends. I'll blame it on myself that I can't keep them. I don't know. I find it easier to find friends on the internet. I can let my guard down. I hope you know what I'm trying to say. Anyways you're an inspiration and just want to say thankyou.
ReplyDeleteThe only walls and limits between human contact are those that we place. For me I find that I am as straight forward regardless of the medium of communication. i have no great need to be in someone's physical presence to see their worth as a human being. I do believe in you kiddo.
ReplyDeleteSweetie, you are so very much loved! In real life and in cyber life. Same thing!
ReplyDeleteGod is using this blogging world in a very real way!! :) It still amazes me how he connects hearts through this medium.
ReplyDeleteMay you have a blessed, joy-filled Christmas!!
Hugs!
Dear JBR, I found such comfort in each and every of my bloggie friends and in each comments. Yepp, it took me some time to understand AND accept that there is a real peron with fears and dreams sitting on the other end of the PC. It is so gratifying to accept all as real and sometimes I catch myself talking to one or the other oir even remember a comment which helps me through the day.
ReplyDeleteYou had a rough year and I am very proud of you. Wish you peaceful and calm X-mas with YOU. Love across the pond
Hey Just Be Real I understand the whole friend thing. You just hang in there okay!
ReplyDeleteI get what you are saying, too. The blog world has helped me in my healing as well. And, yep, I am real, and totally imperfect. Merry Christmas to you... I pray you feel Peace and loved - because you are!
ReplyDeleteKeep strutting along. Read through some of your posts and see the progress you've been making. Have a wonderful holiday.
ReplyDeleteMerry Christmas hugssssssssssssssss
ReplyDeleteI am glad to know that you are doing good.
ReplyDeleteAwesome trip!
May you have the merriest Christmas and the happiest New Year. :)
I pray this season brings you the happiness that you so deserve. Merry Christmas.
ReplyDeleteUrgent Prayer For Eddie (Love Bug)
ReplyDeleteI am typing this for Denise of Shortybears Place she is on the phone with me now
Eddie has had a stroke and is in hospital under observation. They were unable to get the stroke medication in time. So far they have done a CAT scan and a MRI and other test are being awaiting . His leg is effected. He is able to speak. This is written at 9:30 p.m. TN time
He is in Memorial Hospital Chattanooga TN. She is alone so if any friends are able please consider coming to her side. He is being moved to room momentarily.
This is written by Donetta of A Life Uncommon and she can be reached through me.
JBR, just stopping by to wish you a Merry Christmas. I understand how you feel about all the great blog friends out there.
ReplyDeleteyou have such a way of showing your compassion by working through your own issues. I can only say that the only limits to God's mercy is the ones we put on him.
ReplyDeleteKeep moving forward.
"IRL" Is a Raving Lunatic. I think I got that right. Right? :-})
ReplyDeleteAmen for bloggy connections...the Lord uses our friends for just the right words at just the right time....
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