"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Friday, December 04, 2009

SPLIT


I am really struggling today. My spirit is so unsettled. Went through three posts today already and very anxious.

Really hate feeling this turmoil. I am not content. I feel on edge and irritable. I feel like I am going to explode with all this 'energy' going on inside of me! I am getting a lot of 'stinking thinking' that I am doing my best with replacing it with the truth of God that I am worthy, I am loved, I do have purpose!! I want so bad to crawl back into my shell, my comfort zone! Every inch of my being wants to run!!!

BUT....... I will let these feelings play out and try and not get upset about it and "just be" and see what God has to reveal to me during this time!! UGH!!!!! Really hate this part, the feeling part that is!!!

I feel just like this bird. Split and stuck. Cannot move either way. Holding on to both sides. Desiring both solutions. Only knowing one can be had.

8 comments:

  1. AnonymousDecember 04, 2009

    ((((((( JBR ))))))) Days like this tend to be difficult to overcome... just ride with the breeze and "just be" as you state. Hold on to those twigs of hope!!! Love you and wishing you peace, dear one!

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  2. clean and crazyDecember 04, 2009

    sounds like what ever the problem may be you need a bit of blind faith to be able to let go and surrender. once you come to surrender, acceptance seems to follow then you can move about. at least that is how it works for me. hope you get to feeling better soon.

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  3. Wanda's WingsDecember 04, 2009

    {{{{{{JRR}}}}}}} Just continue to hang on. These feeling of anxiety and fear will pass. God is on your side.

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  4. SylviaDecember 04, 2009

    God himself teaches us that there are no bad solutions and no bad choices. That's the essence of the story where the virgins light the candles to guide their lovers home... And the other ones don't. Don't hold on to recipes, JBR, just do what you feel it's right.

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  5. AnonymousDecember 04, 2009

    Keep talking, keep focusing and keep your prayers in front of all the chatter and clutter!! Hugs to you. Tammy

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  6. DeniseDecember 04, 2009

    Keep talking to God, He is listening.

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  7. AnonymousDecember 04, 2009

    Hang in , I'm feeling the same way,I have day i feel unloved and not wanted
    I'm here for you

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  8. AnonymousDecember 04, 2009

    Melt in him. He will see you through.

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