"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Thursday, January 07, 2010


I am ever so near you, hovering over your shoulder, reading every thought. People think that thoughts are fleeting and worthless, but yours are precious to Me.


This is glorious-yet disconcerting! My thinking is not only the part of me that feels most hidden and secret; it is also the most difficult part of my behavior to master. In relationships with other people I can interact with them while keeping my secret thoughts to myself. Your ability to read my every thought is alarming, but it is also wonderful. It's a relief that there is Someone from whom I cannot hide: Secretiveness breeds loneliness. Moreover, the fact that You care about every aspect of me-even all my thoughts-demonstrates how important I am to You.


I know how difficult it is for you to control your thoughts. Your mind is a battleground, and evil spirits work tirelessly to influence your thinking: even deceiving you with intrusive thoughts at times. Your own sinfulness also finds ample expression in your thoughts. You need to stay alert and fight against evil! I fought and died for you, so remember who you are and Whose you are. Thus, you put on the helmet of salvation. This helmet not only protects your mind, it also reminds you of the victory I secured for you on the cross.

Your thoughts are precious to Me because you are My treasure. As soon as your thinking turns My way, I notice and rejoice. The more thoughts you bring to Me, the more you can share in My joy. I disarm evil thoughts and render them powerless. Then I help you think about things that are true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable-excellent and praiseworthy things. Ponder these things, while resting in the Peace of My Presence. (Sarah Young)

My thoughts are so very precious to Him. Wow! He cares so much about me, and that I am that important to Him. Even when my thinking is influenced by the enemy He cares to show me how to go into battle and ward off the evilness. Wo----

It was no accident that I received this book as a gift for Christmas. I am at a point in my journey that I need it impressed upon me minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day how much God cares and loves me! I did not get the proper love growing up from my parents. One neglected me and the other toxicly smothered me.

The acceptance of the "love aspect" of my journey is just as hard as going through the emotional pain. Again, it is not that I disbelieve that God loves me, it is that I have not come to the point where my heart is welcoming this truth! I am getting there though! One day!! Praise God!


  1. The Dear Jesus part is powerful, quite a lot said right there.


  2. stuck-in-hte-middleJanuary 07, 2010

    Good one JBR. I enjoy these post with the dear Jesus and you putting your thoughts.

  3. The acceptance of God's love does not come easy for me as well. Human love is so flawed, and that's what we know. To really know God loves us unconditionally, in our messiness is hard to get our hearts around. But that is the truth!! May this be a year of replacing the lies with truth!!

  4. Amen!
    One day at a time. And before you know it you'll look back and realize hoe strong you are for going through this journey of self-awareness and growth.

  5. My helmet of salvation. I need to remember to put mine on this morning! Thanks.

  6. Sweetie, great post!  To allow God in our most private thoughts is a relationship.  Keep at it!

  7. I am thankful Jesus is with me "no matter what."

    Blessings, andrea

  8. This is a powerful post...I totally understand where you are, I know that God loves me, it's the receiving & accepting part I am having problems with.
    Thanks for sharing this post & for stopping by my blog!

  9. Your post brings Psalm 139 to mind, that I was reading yesterday...Where can we go from His Spirit? And I'm glad that He sees everything. Because He is interested in our well-being. I'm glad that we have a God Who loves us unconditionally. Blessings.

  10. Beautifully written and gracefully stated!


  11. You become your thoughts sweetie, keeping God front and center, leaning on him, honoring him, your thoughts will always be on him and you will always be loved and never be alone...Easier said than done I know but through meditation and making quiet the chatter in your mind you will hear God speaking to you, guiding you....have a wonderful day.......:-) Hugs

  12. JBR, If anyone will truly understand how much God loves them it will be you. You have a heart of determination and are truly seeking HIM! God will bless that beyond measure!

  13. awesome post and I agree with Rose...you have great determination. Tons of hugs to you JBR. You are one very awesome person. ☺

  14. One day at a time...one step at a time...you are gonna make it...WE are gonna make it....

  15. It IS hard to wrap our minds around God loving us just the way we are. I know it is true - I have experienced it, but it is hard to understand at times. God bless!

  16. this post was like a soothing hug...

  17. I did get to read this yesterday and even though I didn't have time to stop and write a comment, I want you to know how much I appreciated being reminded of this. I really needed to read this yesterday and now again tonight. Thank you!

  18. This kind of dialogue is very helpful. Many times I go up to the terrace and have dialogues with him aloud. I know its just between him and me. Its personal and fruitful.

    JBR, you are on the right track. Keep going. We are backing you with our prayers and positive wishes.

    God be with you always,

  19. He loves you, he really does. No matter what wrong or how we may have disappointed him, he returns to comfort. Thats how he is, how ashamed I am for letting him down. But he's there for you. Reach out, call out to him. He's amazing. Bless you dear.