"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Thursday, May 13, 2010


The topic of my health was brought up in today's t. session. I know for a fact, I could eat a whole lot better and feel a whole lot better. Only God and I know how painful at times I can feel physically. I am one that has a high tolerance for pain and I rarely complain how bad I feel, or just minimize the pain.

Right now the "self-care bit" is hard for me to accept.

Although I am beginning to change a few of my eating habits. Trying to cut out the comfort foods, especially chocolate. (Those dark chocolate Dove bars get me into trouble every time.) I really never had a problem with chocolate until of late since on my journey. I do not even like ice cream. Sometimes it is easier to eat poorly and not care because of my poor self image.

So, for the past couple of days, I have been trying to substitute the chocolate cravings with, of all things, shredded wheat. Yup those shredded wheat things that look like a bail of hay. Them big guys. Not the checkered stuff.

Also, getting back to a regular routine of walking. Which I loved to do.

The above it not even the hard part. The really hard part is wanting to change my poor eating habits for the right reasons, which is I want to do it for "me." That I am worth the change. That is the tough part. "Yes Lord grant me Your calm, grace and gentleness with myself."

So, with all that being said, I need prayer!

I recalled sharing a prayer, I believe a while back on my blog. I am reintroducing it here again for anyone else who needs a touch from the Lord and a reminder as I do:

"Lord, I thank you for the time I have available to me when I am feeling lousy which otherwise I would be using differently. Give me fresh hope, new vision, a knowledge of your great love for me, and a real awareness that you will heal me in Your own way and time. Show me everything which I am able to do today to help my body to become well again. If that means absolute rest, grant me patience to fulfill this task. I need Your strength to carry me through this phase of my life. Thank you that I am never alone, and please grant me Your calm, grace and gentleness with myself at this time. Amen."


  1. Sending you big and loving prayers!
    When I first came to AA I had no idea how to care for myself...rather take care of myself, basics alluded me and through time, prayer, love and spiritual growth it came...you sound like you're moving through a growth phase and you are really feeling it and moving through...prayers are coming and much love.

  2. Praying for you and with you....

  3. I wish you the best JBR! I know that working on self-care can be difficult but it does get easier. You are worth it!

  4. Amen. May He sustain you with His strength. I for one, need to eat healthier, too. I have been. Lately, it seemed I was going back again to "junk" food. Lesser fat. But still. A junk food is a junk food. God bless.

  5. I am lifting you up in prayers for His will to heal you.

    It takes time to make change effective and long lasting. Start with baby steps and each day will become easier for you.

    My trainer always told me that we can make a U-turn even after we have blown it. I have made a lot of U turns and will make even more.

    Start with just one thing that you can change or give up for your healthy eating. I gave up Dr. Pepper and sugar. It is difficult because I love sugar, but it does not love me. When I have sugar, my pain is so much worse.

    My sweet friend you inspire us all with your walk. Just know that you are not alone. THe other day I made the connection to food from a childhood memory. My therapist is helping me so much.

    Blessings and love.

  6. Chocolate was always a problem for me - the darker the chocolate the worse the migraine. Hope eliminating it from your diet will help your migraines!!! Take care JBR

  7. Yeah, I tend to turn to chocolate when I'm down, or bored. It's so so bad. And the moment I start to eat chocolate the more I crave and the harder it is to say no next time.
    One step at a time. And walking will make a HUGE difference.

  8. Appreciate all of your prayers, thank you.

  9. comfort foods are really hard to let go... i love chocolate and ice cream and basically anything unhealthy but I am on a journey now to loose some weight and can only eat those things once in a blue moon... I must say... I haven't really missed them much and I hope you discover some good tasting but healthier things to substitute your sweet tooth with:)

  10. Comfort foods can be difficult to control. Wishing you the best.

  11. I'm glad you've decided to take care of yourself-- that shows good self-esteem! And all foods in moderation are healthy. Don't completely deny yourself something you love!

    Wishing you well,