"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Sunday, June 27, 2010


I am in a new season for being stretched!

God is stretching me and I really do NOT like it at all.

I knew this would happen though.

I did not pray against the growth.

But I certainly do not welcome it.


I want my comfort.

Part of the stretching is TRUSTING Him during this growth period. Trusting Him that He will be right there with me through the worst of it. The tears, the uncertainty, the fears.

This growth period is between God and I only.

He is the only one that knows the particulars that have been going on in me for a couple of weeks now.

Only He and I know about this.

It is not that I am trying to hide what I am going through and struggling with. The Spirit is quiet within me on this matter to want to share at this point. Or if ever at all.

That is why I am referring to the stretching as "it."

God wants me to run to Him right now on this one.

No human intervention at this point.

I am in total agreement with Him on this one where "it" is only He and I.

I knew "this" one would eventually come up and would have to be dealt with.

It has been waiting in the wings until I was a bit stronger and able to see some things as I journey on.

It is a toughie though. A BIG ONE FOR ME!

Something that will take time to heal and overcome.

It has been a driving force within me for as long as I can remember.

I still cover it up well around people to this day. As it is very painful and find difficult to admit for fear of being hurt.

I only ask for your prayers as the reason I share what I have. God wants me to start dealing with "it" now.

I really need your support as I enter this new phase. Particularly in hearing clearly what the Lord wants me to do. Most importantly that I be open and not fight what He says. As my flesh will want to in a bad way not do this!

You all are very special to me.

Off to church now....

.................................................................................................................................................... I Got The Joy!


  1. Yes, there is such a love hate thing that goes on with this. You know you will be a different person on the otherside, one you welcome. But the getting there sucks!!!!

    Just keep remembering you are in the hands of the lover of your soul!!!!


  2. Just like that photo you posted, I can imagine the pain but excited at the same time with the freedom that awaits...Freedom from pain? Being healed from having the deepest wound?

    Yes, it hurts to be stretched out but like a guitar that we like, as we stretched the each string and fine tune them, that's the only way for it to bring out the best melodies...May God's strength and comfort cover you JBR!

  3. This was the topic of last week's sermon at my church. That God wants us to stretch beyond our comfort zones, and we do not always like it. Any time I hear the same message that close together I know I need to pay attention. Thank you for delivering the message I needed to hear today. Bless you JBR. At least we do not have to do this alone.

  4. Oh, dear friend....GOD is stretching me so much right now....I feel like the stretch armstrong doll...accept my limbs are about to pop off.

    Thank you for your continued prayers, encouragement, and support.


  5. AnonymousJune 27, 2010

    I'm sorry you're having a rough time right now. But you are strong and I believe that you will be in a better space in no time.

    Wishing you well,

  6. the comfort zone is that unhealthy place we are used to. We are used to hurting, to being hurt. Growth takes you out of that comfort you are used to so that you can create one full of light, faith and energy.
    Be strong

  7. You have my love, prayers, and support friend.