"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Friday, August 27, 2010


Living in the present for some of us can be difficult. Especially when our eyes have been opened to what we lost in the past and what we should or could have been. "We can't recapture what is no more."

I know this has been a struggle for me at times.

Sure we can become angry about it. I HAVE! Because a lot of our childhood was stolen from us due to abuse, neglect etc. Regret of the things we missed out on life.

I personally went into what I call "isolation" during my teenage years into my mid-twenties. Closed myself off. Lost touch of reality at times to the point that I did not know how to relate to even normal every day interaction with another human being. I was stuck where my trauma left me. My life was driven by fear! Missed out on a lot of opportunities growing up.

With that being said..... we cannot stay there anymore. We must move on. I know, I know, easier said than done. Yes, I do know that. And yes I also know that being stuck in the past regretting, being bitter is not helping either. I am not making light of any of our situations. Or poo-pooing what many of us went through. That is not my intention.

I just know with God's help especially, that He wants us to move on. He has better plans for us. He can heal those deep painful hurts if we are open to Him. Even though I do not know why God let what happened to most of us, I still trust Him. He does see the BIG picture.

Not going to lie. If you are serious, there is emotional pain to work through. But, once you are through that, "wow" is all I can say. And that is what I am doing each day I become stronger. There is a new life awaiting me. Awaiting you!

I pray as I continue to heal through my own emotional pain of the past, that maybe someone else who may be reading this blog for the first time or you have been reading for a long time, join me with your "own" healing path to freedom.


  1. i agree we can not stay there....we were not created for isolation...though we can fool ourselves into living there....thinking no one understands...

  2. JBR excellent post. No matter what storm you are going through in your life, God has a way through it and above it. For believers, his strength will always be all that you need because he knew your name long before he formed the earth. That is so hard to fathom because our mind cannot contain a truth this great. The true God who knows all things loved you before you were born! God planned every aspect of your life from where you would be born, to whom and when. Even where you live was ordained in God’s masterful plan. His desire was that all would come to him and be saved. He knew that problems you would have and he understood your weaknesses. He knows your sin and your rebellion, yet he still has a purpose and a plan to give you victory through the blood of Jesus Christ. JBR I walk with you along your journey walk with my own set of struggles. God Bless.

  3. Thank you Brian for your comment. So true.

    onthewaynow thank you for sharing and coming along side with me on your own personal journey walk.

  4. Love the saying, cannot recapture, so true. Yes your journey is encouraging.

  5. This is so true in so many ways. I watch people leave the program all the time because they cannot "bear" the pain of walking through what was, but more than that they are fearful and terrified of what is still to come...this always is terrifying...what if'ing it won't make it seem better...this post however is wonderful in sentiment and amazing!! Thank you for ithis today!!!

    xoxo Gabi

  6. Staying with it is the important part.

  7. Great post...so true..my past has many regrets and what if's....I lost my childhood...now,I am trying to revive that little girl,nurture her and love her and reconnect her with who I am now....blessings

  8. Hey Kim, Wanda, Shelley, Denise and Gabby. Thank you for your comments and continued encouragement!

    Yes Shelley the past can have many regrets. You are doing the right thing in trying nurture your little one. Blessings.

  9. Amen to the future and all that awaits!

  10. I can relate to this so much and have been through it myself. Sometimes it feels like no matter what we do we might never be ok again, but if we keep believing and keep out faith we will find a way to rise above it. Thanks for sharing this post. I join you in a healing path toward freedom.