"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Thursday, July 28, 2011

BETTER TODAY - I SURRENDER

Follow up to yesterday's rant post. I did have trouble with sleep. But, that is okay. Was able to sort things out. Getting over my rage is becoming quicker now. That is improvement. Realizing I am only hurting myself physically especially at this point, and emotionally with these still tantrums.

I am determined to forgive myself. Starting this moment. Then I will be able to forgive others. No matter the cost.

Suck up my pride. Let Jesus have my pain. Try not to care what others think. What I may look like on the outside, i.e. weak. But, knowing and starting to believe I am strong on the inside! Start believing and walking out who I am in Christ!

Begin saying good things about people that I have issues with. Or at least begin to start not saying bad things about them and keep my mouth shut!!

I cannot live with this physical pain of stress any longer. I know this will not be an easy battle, but "I surrender Lord."

Listening to Joyce Meyer this morning, as I do every morning, confirmed today what I wrote above.

I guess this is one of the requirements to "really stepping out of my comfort zone."



9 comments:

  1. AnonymousJuly 28, 2011

    JBR bold post from you. To admit your weaknesses and struggles. I am proud of you. I know it's not easy to do this. You're growing leaps and bounds. I hope you know this? God Bless.

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  2. ColleenJuly 28, 2011

    I am proud of you too JBR and know that what you are doing isn't easy. Praying for strength for you! You are doing so well!

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  3. Reformed rebelJuly 28, 2011

    Good morning JBR. I love that you are real when you write. I always say that God had me start my blog for therapy. It always helps me to "write it out". I am praying for you.

    Blessings in HIM...Chelle

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  4. RCUBEsJuly 28, 2011

    I just came from another blog writing about the "love poured in"...and now with the video you shared, "there is no love sweeter than the love poured on me..." So simple but so profound...His love that overflows. May it always carry you through as you go through this healing process. God bless.

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  5. child of GodJuly 28, 2011

    Glad to hear that you were able to sort things out quickly. :)
    I found myself praying for you lots yesterday and I didn't even know until this morning that you had a bad day. God sent out you name to me, isn't that neat? :)

    Praying,
    <><

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  6. Wanda's WingsJuly 28, 2011

    Doing this one day at a time.

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  7. Debby@Just BreatheJuly 28, 2011

    I'm so glad your better today. It is very stressful and stress is never a good thing.
    Continue to use your tools and remain strong. With practice and time it will come a lot easier to do.

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  8. AnonymousJuly 28, 2011

    Your determination is very admirable! Way to go, JBR! You're taking steps in the right direction.

    Wishing you well,
    NOS

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  9. Mary N.July 29, 2011

    I love this aspect of your personality, JBR :) The woman who refuses to be held down by the trials of life comes out and she is beautiful to behold :)

    Yes, always forgive yourself because this is what Jesus does and we strive through grace to be like Him.

    I am praying for you!

    "She WILL conquer" Believe, my friend, believe.

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