"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Friday, January 20, 2012


Two of my favorite soaking songs. Already mastered one on guitar.

I felt a great impression upon my heart last night that one of the reasons the Lord let me be taken out of the work field is to have more time to be in His presence. He is giving me that opportunity.

When I first learned about my lay-off I tried to figure out "on my own" what activities I could fill my days with. Checking out different day time bible studies, women's groups and what not. The more I searched out things to do, the more my spirit was not in agreement. I was just trying to find fillers to ease my pain. Anticipating boredom. It really only took a day or two for me to realize this was not the route God wanted me to go.

Although I have been after His presence much more intensely these past few months, not having a responsibility of a job right now (I can comfortably last a few good months) frees me up to really seek out Him and He me.

Not saying this has been easy. It has not. Each day is a struggle. I am still dealing with my journey issues at the same time.

When I wake up in the mornings from usually a bad nights sleep, being or seeking out His presence is the furthest thing from my mind. Satan right away attacks my thoughts and tries his darnedest to condemn me. Possibly having me snowball right into an negative attitude. All before I step out of bed.

This is where I have to actually "fight to live." Get out of the pit of despair I have dug for so long and remind myself that in Jesus' presence I will find peace. The joy and eventually experience His love!!


  1. I will pray for you. 'Lord, give her peace to feel the direction You want her to move in. Let her know that she is enough for you. Just being your child is enough. Your love flows over her and through her, please help her feel it in her heart and in her flesh.'

    In Him,

  2. Joyful, thank you very much for your prayer. I claim your words. Blessings.