"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Wednesday, February 01, 2012


I have never ever been under what I would call such a "powerful" demonic attack as much as I have these past few days. Especially in my home. At Night!!

I first thought I needed a full sweep of my home to get rid of some things. I thought there may be some soul ties from previous roommates living with me and unhealthy relationships.

I am believing more now, especially since last Sonday, when I had a significant beginning breakthrough with tears (previous post and thank you all for such a tremendous response) that these attacks have intensified.

Sonday night I was restless which disturbed my sleep. Then on Monday during the early part of the day, while watching and worshiping a revival rerun hosted by God TV the presence of the Lord hit me with first deep tears then laughter. So true, however brief it was for me, in His presence is fullness of joy!! It happened twice that day. These were truly an encounter with the Holy Spirit. Different and significant from any other time. Hence another breakthrough for me.

So, come Monday night I was not able to sleep. Tremendous oppression and depression and disturbing dreams plagued and woke me up early. My gut was full of fear. Pain in my body. Thoughts of death. Becoming physically sick. I pleaded the blood. Turned lights on in my home. Read the Bible. Had worship music on. The atmosphere in my home very ominous. I Could NOT wait for the sun to peek over the horizon the next morning.

My birds even sensed something going on. They have been exceptionally quiet.

Most of yesterday it was difficult getting into the Spirit. An uneasiness feeling in and around me remained.

Before attempting sleep last night, in anticipation of another enemy attack, I went to each of my rooms again in my home with anointing oil. Casting out any evil spirits in the name of Jesus. Praying in the Spirit. I slept better.

So what's going on????

In observation, it has been four weeks now since I was let go from my job. I have seen my "good" ex-boss twice for lunch since then. (She cannot get over how well I look and full of the Spirit. She said that I have never looked so good. Even when I worked for her.) A couple of other ex-co-workers that I trust as well I have seen. Now all of a sudden more of my ex-co-workers are coming out of the wood work getting in touch with me. One's I would not think to call me, have this week. All with good intentions.

So what is wrong with good intentions you say? For the average person nothing. But, apparently lately I am not the average person anymore. (***JBR smiles***)

Pretty much these past few weeks I have been in the wilderness seeking after God's heart and enjoying my time. Desiring to be in His presence. And when I am back with "good" people that seem concerned and miss me at work, it is hard for me to deal with. Because I am thrown back into the real world full of memories and life's pain. The peace I found in seeking the Lord during this hiatus then seems to fade. My Spirit becomes troubled.

I am changing for the better and even something as nice as people wanting to see me can innocently stir up something I do not want a part of anymore. Satan can try and use this to his advantage.

So, in order to gain strength in being able to stand firm against the enemy, and keep the full armor of God on, I am really trying to limit my time with seeing certain people from my last job. Hoping not to offend them. But, I really need to do this and not be thrust backwards. I am just not that strong in my mind yet to defend off the enemy's method of attack.

All in all these recent attacks from the enemy are just proof I am gaining more ground and becoming stronger.


  1. Hi JBR,
    Thank you for sharing this! While reading my mind was opened to the understanding of why I too, am under attack right now.

    Please don't stop sharing what you are going through for your ministry is huge, helping others see why things are the way they are.

    Praying for you often and rejoicing with you in this freedom of understanding you are gaining.


  2. Child of God, I so appreciate your comment. Thank you and blessings.

  3. There is a book call Prayers that Rout Demons(John Eckhardt)...I bought mine from Walmart...the prayers are powerful.The first night I read through this book..Satan battled me through nightmares...I stood my ground and continue to pray these prayers of binding plus confession of Scripture for myself and my family.This very book is laying in my bed at this moment. I have Psalms 91 memorized and quote it at night..then pray
    I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, LORD, only makest me dwell in safety.Psalms 4:8 I have nothing to fear....No weapon that is formed against me(OR YOU) shall prosper...blessings

    Thank you for being faithful to visit my blog and leave kind comments.

  4. Hi Shelley. Thank you for sharing that book by John Eckhardt. Many people do not realize just how much a raging battle goes on in the spiritual world of good and evil. Blessings.

  5. Hi JBR,
    Tears and then laughter....Woo!! Hoo! I am doing the happy dance for you.... I am so excited for what God is doing!!!!! Thank you Jesus for healing JBR. Praying for you as you walk through the battle.


  6. JBR in this life satan isn't giving up. He sees how strong you're becoming and is trembling. Keep pleading the blood. You're much more powerful than he. Especially now when you're gaining that ground. He's choking. The book which one of your commenters mentioned, is good. A good recommendation. God Bless.

  7. Thank you Tammy, and whoo hoo is right!!

    Ontheway thanks for your encouragement as well. Blessings.

  8. HI JBR - wear a crucifix at all times. k?
    Love Gail


  10. We truly fight against powers of Satan. You are strong in the Lord and will win no mater what the enemy toss your way. Believing in you and the power of God's Holy Spirit.

  11. Just wanna' let u know I was here @ the wee hrs.of this morn praying for you. I just couldn't leave a comment at that time. I'm grateful that the Lord had given us His arsenal of weapons to fight the enemies. It is His battle so victory was done! Take care JBR!

  12. What is goin on with you JbR? Your very strong in your faith and the devil still bothers you. I don;t think I could be that strong like you to hold off the attacks. Your past job has some influence.

  13. I NEEDED to read this and as usual, you and I are on the same path on this journey. I've been having a DOOSER of a time lately. I haven't been visiting (which the Holy Spirit has placed it on my heart NUMEROUS time to do so)...I needed to read this to realize I too have been under a great oppression and attack from the demonic world..

    All in all these recent attacks from the enemy are just proof I am gaining more ground and becoming stronger.


  14. It sounds like you are really having some issues that are trembling within that need to be resolved...keep with it because that is the only way through...
    prayers to you!

  15. Anonymous your comment is not taken lightly. I have been under some major emotional duress this evening. Not only trying to work through some emotional pain, but the oppression is trying to set in again. Might be a rough night in store for me again.

    Gail thank you for your comment and concern.

    Wanda thank you for your words of encouragement!

    Rosel, I know you have been having Blogger issues. I cannot tell you how much I appreciate your sincere prayers.

    Sometimes, I still crack up when I see your profile picture. I thank you for all your comments to me. I am glad that you get encouragement out of my blog.

    Angela I am sorry that you are as well under "these attacks." You can understand they are not fun. The Holy Spirit will tug at our heartstrings to get our attention.

    Tracy thank you for your words of encouragement.

  16. Spiritual growth can blossom from going through something like this. God bless you for sharing your story. I found your blog through Gentle Recovery....so glad that I did. :-)

  17. Hey Hey dear friend, how much I always relate to so much of your postings! I once was fired and the nursing home administrator called me into her office she said, Rhonda I am going to have to let you go, but first I want you to know never have I had an employee as committed as you, I know if I ask you to do something for me by the end of the day it will be done, you will not find anyone with the compassion in your heart as you have towards the residences, you are dependable, trustworthy, and a good person...but I must let you go ...! Those were her words! She there was a corporate lady from far away that did not like me due to my "choice of belief" she resented me to the "hilt"...and she requested my termination. The adminstrator was nice about it and hate to let me go ....I smiled and said, you know, and I called her by name, my God is Sovereign and you or anyone else cannot harm me or take away from me unless God allows....I told her to not stress over this action she was having to take, that I harbored no ill feelings ....God is amazing and he will provide! She was amazed...
    God's love and forgivness was exalted at that very moment ..
    And the boogers hanging around at night ....I have experienced that also ...God will provide protection....realize that they are not of HIM and quote scriptures or play them....it is tough ...I know it is a fierce battle that they rage against us ....but the scripture states the Battle belongs to the LORD ..you just get busy BLESSING HIS NAME PRAISING HIS NAME THANKINF HIS NAME AND GLORIFYING GOD ....and these boogers have to go ...

  18. Welcome Carrie! Appreciate your very kind words, thank you.

    Oh Rhonda! What can I say. The connection between us two is something else. Thank you for sharing your story about your release from a job. I certainly see the similarities in telling the higher ups not to worry about me. In the meantime.... Boogers be gone! :)

  19. I agree totally, you are definitely gaining more ground and becoming stronger!

  20. I hate that feeling of oppression and being under attack that you talk about in your post. I'll be praying for you, JBR. Using anointing oil was a good idea. I sometimes go through my place with holy water and that seems to help a lot too. As scary as attacks like these can be I like to remember that their power is minimal while God is omnipotent. (Still scary though)

    May the precious blood of Our Lord Jesus Christ cover you, my friend.

  21. Lol on the "Booger's be gone!" Sounds like a a type of cleaning spray or something :)

  22. stopped by to wish you a gentle day. Praying for you to walk tall and free...It's your right. ☺

  23. I am glad you are sharing this pain...the loss of a job is so hard to take. I hope you are better soon

  24. Yes Debby I am gaining more ground and satan knows it big time. Thank you for your encouragement.

    Mary, I got a kick out of Rhonda's description of the little devils too. "Boogers." Thank you for your prayers and the covering.

    Nikki always always appreciate your visits and rah rah's! Blessings

    Kim, thank you. The Lord is leading me on to the next adventure.

  25. This holds true for us all sweetie. The closer we pull toward Jesus the more powerfully the devil attacks.

    Just think of the powerful witness this post is to others.

    Hang on tightly to Jesus sweetie, He will carry you through this.

    The spirit world is something we rarely talk about but it's very real. The last thing Satan wants is for us to have a closer relationship with God.

    God bless and have a joyous day dear one! :o)