"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Thursday, February 16, 2012


This week has been a rough one for me emotionally. Today being a bit better than the other days. So I am attempting to blog.

Usually I am even keel with my depression and can cope. Depression I have struggled with most my life. On some occasions, my depression is extra trying. Bringing on added feelings of guilt and shame.

It effects my spiritual life and my desire to draw closer to God. I battle with making myself get up and go outside and not sleep all day. Combat negative depressing thoughts. My personal hygiene can suffer as well.

If I learned anything from this past year of trial after trial in my life is that the devil will NOT give up in tormenting and opposing my goal in a breakthrough to freedom.

Many times it seemed the bad out-weighed the good. That what I faced last year brought me at times into a rut of depression and despair. Only to surface a few days later, after my thinking became clearer and my dependance on God became stronger that I found myself in a better state of mind. Thank you Lord!

Understanding how God's kingdom operates and how the devil opposes my healing and progression, he will systematically try and defeat me not only with trials but the lowest of the low...... depression.

"Every time God is ready to bring us higher, there is going to be new opposition that comes against us. It could be something we've dealt with in the past that comes back against us in a stronger way than before—or something new that we've never dealt with. If we plan to progress in life, we need to know that there's a price to pay." - Joyce Meyer


  1. Hi JBR,
    I am praying for your breakthrough.
    God bless,

  2. Hi JBR,
    I'm sorry you feel depressed. I found also that when I was unemployed, I'd have to battle a lot with depression. Maybe too much time on my hands, or lack of income, or lack of contact with the outside world. Good that you keep getting out of the house. Sending healing thoughts.

  3. Thanks for sharing. Life can be a struggle for all of us. Your reminder to stay close to God and not let the enemy win is appreciated.

  4. It is hard as our enemy doesn't stop from trying to immobilize any child of God. I feel that way sometimes. Sometimes it feels like I'm so wounded &tired but thanks be to God, His arms are always open wide to comfort & strengthen me. Praying that His strength is always yours JBR!
    God bless & protect you!

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  6. JBR good to see you again. The strategies of satan are common. To look at this area we should realise what satan's prime target is. JBR which I'm sure you know his target is without a doubt our mind! He may try any avenue but his ultimate goal is the mind. This is the part of us that has control over the rest of us, both the body and the spirit. This is the thinking bit, the decision making bit. It is the bit that governs our actions and our thoughts, so naturally satan wants control, so he can govern the whole person. He will no doubt try to influence the other parts of us to get a foothold but ultimately he is after our mind. Continue relying on God no matter how you feel. God Bless.

  7. Hi JBR,
    Sometimes, because of the cloudy days of winter, people will become depressed especially during February. Where I live, in the mountains, we have very few sunny days and many house holds have a sun lamp of some sort to supply the needed vitamins through the skin. Maybe this would help you. You don't need any special lamp just the bulb that you can pick up almost anywhere.

    Hugs dear girl, keep looking up and moving forward.

  8. I can relate so much to this post. Some days it is harder than others to see the light. God smile with as we keep on trying.

  9. I Like the photo. It does seem like Satan is right in your face sometimes. Especially in bringing his lies to my mind.When I'm depressed is when I listen to those lies and then I get more depressed. Praying for His victory over your depression.

  10. So glad you are in a better frame of mind more often now. I pray you continue to break free from your past. ((HUGS))

  11. When I read the part about you feeling better today, the first thing I thought of was that satan must be off work today because I felt really good too and that is not common.