My hormones are all over the place these days!!! I can be up one moment to down the next. Menopause is not fun!
I am learning now to go with whatever feeling/emotion I am experiencing and not fight it. One day I could be talking about love and today, it is about deep emotional wounds. So bear with me......
We all have wounds from our past. Some of us deeper than others. Some of us heal quicker than others.
My life was ruled by fear growing up. From being sexually abused early on to dealing with my parents divorce and the split up of our family when I was 9.
I do not think counseling was an option back then. Not readily talked about when it came to trauma for children. My mum was too proud. Somehow I guess the parent thinks the child is as strong as they are in a crisis and would get over it 1,2,3. But, my mum's idea of "getting over it" was to drink. She drank more readily to numb her pain. I had nothing to numb mine but to stuff and suffer alone. I did not even have a mum to console me as she was in her own stupor of guilt.
Didn't my parents even stop to think the pain they themselves were experiencing as older adults would be ten times worse for the children who had no concept of what pain was?
I am so grateful that I know the Lord now! He is healing me daily from my past wounds. Beginning to grow in His love. Thank you Daddy!!
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!