For the past few months I have had in my "Bookmarks" on my desktop one particular Facebook page from one of my "past" co-dependent/friends/roommates from the late 1980's.
Every day I would bring up her page and ask the Lord, "Is this the day to send a "Friends Request?" Mind you I have not seen nor heard from her since 1990 when she moved away. Our relationship, although very co-dependent on my end, was not the horrific one that followed her. Oh that one was super scary and sick, sick, sick and at times dangerous!!
The one I am talking about here was civil. We did everything together. Involved heavily in our church's activities, especially the Deaf Ministry. I do know one thing though about her, from word-of-mouth and even her Facebook page, she has fallen away from the true belief's of God. This saddens me.
I know she was very hurt by me and how I treated her in the end. By dropping her and accusing her of things. All being fed to me by then my "new co-dependent crazy/scary person."
Today was the day to send her the Friends Request. My spirit finally felt at peace to do so. Even though I was scared to click the button. I did.
This could go either way. She may still be hurt and not even bother with me. Or, she may have forgiven me, and is curious enough to find out what has been going on with me these past twenty or so years.
If she "Friends" me on Facebook. I will take the opportunity to apologize to her.
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!