I love watching House Hunters on HGTV. I have been watching this program for close to five years. On and off.
Something weird happened yesterday. I was watching an episode which has the same story line as a hundred other House Hunters episodes. As the parents of a family were being shown a house, they said, "Oh this room will be good for the kids to play in and have fun." I have heard this so many times. Never bothering me before. Until yesterdays episode.
It was like the quickest flash back/memory that struck my heart like a hot dagger. My heart felt pain.
When I moved up to NY with my mum, when I was 12, to live with her and my new step-father, the first year they looked for a house to buy. Ending up never buying a house though. That memory quickly ran through my mind also. Only remembering it yesterday.
Yesterday's episode showed the parents looking out for the welfare of the kids and their play time and having fun. I felt a sense of loss in my heart when they said this and having this flash back happen. Part of my existence was taken from me back then when my parents divorced and our family split. Knowing I would not have a room to play in with my family and childhood friends I was forced to leave behind.
In saying all this, there is a good side. Connecting deeply, I know God is restoring my heart.
"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds." - Psalm 147:3
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!