I love watching House Hunters on HGTV. I have been watching this program for close to five years. On and off.
Something weird happened yesterday. I was watching an episode which has the same story line as a hundred other House Hunters episodes. As the parents of a family were being shown a house, they said, "Oh this room will be good for the kids to play in and have fun." I have heard this so many times. Never bothering me before. Until yesterdays episode.
It was like the quickest flash back/memory that struck my heart like a hot dagger. My heart felt pain.
When I moved up to NY with my mum, when I was 12, to live with her and my new step-father, the first year they looked for a house to buy. Ending up never buying a house though. That memory quickly ran through my mind also. Only remembering it yesterday.
Yesterday's episode showed the parents looking out for the welfare of the kids and their play time and having fun. I felt a sense of loss in my heart when they said this and having this flash back happen. Part of my existence was taken from me back then when my parents divorced and our family split. Knowing I would not have a room to play in with my family and childhood friends I was forced to leave behind.
In saying all this, there is a good side. Connecting deeply, I know God is restoring my heart.
"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds." - Psalm 147:3
i LOVE that verse.
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ReplyDeleteFunny how certain things trigger memories...Great to see how God is healing your heart!
ReplyDeleteJBR your heart is healing. That's all that matters. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteSORRY FOR THE PAINFUL MEMORY. IT'S ALL PART OF THE HEALING PROCESS. FUNNY HOW THINGS WE THINK WILL NOT AFFECT US DO. EVEN IF WE HAVE GONE THROUGH THEM A NUMBER OF TIMES BEFORE. THEN ONE DAY, BAM!
ReplyDelete((((JBR)))) I'm sorry for the painful memory. I'm glad that you have such a strong spiritual foundation to lean on.
ReplyDeleteAlthough many things that happened long ago can hurt us when we remember them, but like you said. Thanks God because He is healing us and making us whole again.
ReplyDeleteI will admit that I can still feel the pain once in a while, but God helps me to forgive:)
I often wonder if those that inflicted the pain know what they have done.
ReplyDeleteIt's amazin' what can trigger a buried memory but sometimes we have to dig 'em up so we can deal and get on with life.
ReplyDeleteI so pray that God pours out His everlovin' peace upon you saturating your soul with His love.
God bless ya sweetie and have an amazin' week my sweet friend! :o)
Hi hon,
ReplyDeleteDivorce is so hard on kids, I am glad God is healing your broken heart.
Hugs,
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Great that you can see the positive side of the occurrence. Wishing you a blessed week ahead.
ReplyDeleteThat is so sad. I am sure God waited for this memory to come when He knew you were further along in your healing and more prepared to handle it. My husband likes that show!
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