My earthly father many times made me feel like I was a burden. Even as an adult. I can remember the words he would say to me that made my little girl cry inside and want to curl up and die. When my dad was alive and I moved back to Florida I stayed for a year with my brother and sister-in-law before finding my own place. Had a job, helped pay bills and still my dad constantly reminded me in no uncertain terms that I was a burden to my brother and that they did not want me living with them. My brother never said that. That was just my dad assuming this. Speaking his critical mind. Because my Dad Would not want me to stay with him.
My dad's words and looks would crush me growing up. He had a very low tolerance for about anything. A very critical and judgmental man. My mum has her own twist of cutting one to pieces. Now-a-days I call her on it. But I become exasperated. As we then argue.
My mum can be very insulting. Besides insults with my weight.... now she has found a new thing to complain about. "Tanning." I have been getting some sun. My mum has managed to cut me down that I am not tanning evenly and I do not look healthy because of it. (Had to chuckle at that one) She is so appearance conscience.
She also still finds time to call me stupid when I do not do what she wants. I have told her to stop calling me this. But she does not. She may put a little flare to it so it does not sound harsh and call me, "Little Stupido." Stupid or Stupido, the meaning is the same.
I am so glad that my Heavenly Daddy does NOT call me insulting names. He has many good names for each one of us!
As I continue to heal, my belief that I am a capable individual with intelligence grows. That I do deserve respect. And that I am NOT this Little Stupido!
I am striving to believe fully in my heart one day the label God would put on me, "Loveable." Getting there.....
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!