I was debating whether to share this post or not. Deciding to as this is what I believe. I wanted to testify whether you may believe this way or not.
This morning I went to a healing service that they offer once a month on Saturday at one of the churches I attend regularly. It is a combination of healing and worship.
Anyway, I specifically asked the two prayer warriors that were there to stand with me to "ward off the enemy's attacks to my thinking." One of the prayer warriors, a nice young man specifically asked me what I was struggling with. I told him. "Still dealing at times with people pleasing and the fear of man and what they think of me."
So after quoting Scripture, praying and believing with me to rebuke the attacks of the enemy on my thinking, the one prayer warrior turned to me as he was kneeling beside me with his hand on my shoulder and proceeded to tell me more. He was not through.
He cautioned me that "I could take what he had to say with a grain of salt if I wanted to" (in fact he said that a few times through out), but he felt that the Lord was showing him something that I needed to hear.
He said that the Lord wants me to "Rest." Okay I was all for that. No problem. No problem because when I was laid off early this year, despite the attacks of the enemy with my health and finances since then, I have been pretty much calmer and relaxing more in body and mind.
The next thing the prayer warrior said to me which really GOT my attention was, "are you and your mother having a rough time with each other?" WoW! Wow I say as more times than not when there is a people pleasing problem/fear with a daughter it is usually a "father" image pleasing thing and not a mother. But he specifically said, "mother." Yep, I heard right. I said yes!
He went on to say that he envisioned me as a young child in a open field of very tall green grass and one shoot of grass was taller than all the rest. I do not know what the significance of that was. Maybe it represented my mother? Towering over me? Anyway, he then said, "you were told lies back then and you do not have to believe them now" WoW! That was so right on!
He then went on to say that "I do not have to be involved with the world's hussel and busel and bright lights like Time Square. The Lord wants you to rest. Wait upon Him. Do not force the issue. He would show me."
This is what I have been feeling of late. Not to force issues. To remain in "hiddeness" for now. To sit back and let things unfold in front of me and God will take care of the "rest." (no pun intended)
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!