"When you let a person be your “need-meeter,” you allow that one to be your god. From the beginning, God knew the only path to peace would be complete reliance on Him. He alone meets your needs. He alone completes you. Allow Him to transform your heart until it belongs undividedly to Him − it is there that true freedom lies." - Hope for the Heart
This statement is so true. I have been a "born again" believer for over thirty years. But, I did NOT have God first in my life. Through my injured and damaged heart, I continued to find healing in people. Even though they would disappoint me time and time again. I found myself running back to them. Hoping somehow I could find my happiness and acceptance in others.
I was not living the real me to be accepted though. I was conforming to whomever would pay attention to me. I was a Chameleon changing at a drop of the hat. To be accepted.
I became good at faking people out. It became and art for me. But I was soooooo very unhappy! Faking people out took a lot of know-how and calculation. Figuring out what "people liked or did not like" so I could please them. Emotionally and physically this was draining to do. I was tired. I was unhappy. I needed help!
Four years ago I put myself on a journey of facing my past pain. I was serious and determined to seek help. Has not been easy facing some of my monsters. But worth it in the end! Most of my struggles encompassed co-dependency and people pleasing issues. A lot of it stemming from my upbringing. Feeling unworthy.
I know I shared this before, but since being laid off in January of this year from my job, I have had unconditional time and opportunity to spend with my Heavenly Daddy. I had a choice. So glad I chose to seek my Savior and to get to know Him more intimately. I honestly believe I would not of had this opportunity if I was working. My attention has not been fully on Him most my life. Even as I was healing from my past, the "world" "my job" still had a grip on me.
Right now is the closest I have ever been to my Heavenly Daddy. He allowed a couple of painful major events during this time to get my attention. He has. And I am glad!
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!