"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Thursday, June 28, 2012

OWN UP TO MY ANGER

As discussed in t. today, I still have issues with unforgiveness. How I was treated seven months ago when I was laid off from my job.

I relayed to my t. that usually once a week I am triggered really bad with anger towards how I was handled by the "higher ups" there. Resulting in not owning up to my anger on this situation. Making excuses that "good came out of them letting me go." Yeah, good did come out. But what was done to me was not fair regardless. That is where I cut off.

Not experiencing the raw emotions of dealing with my pain by yelling, hitting a pillow, crying etc. I had not really done that. To the full extent accepting in my heart, "Yeah, I was treated unfairly and screwed over." Revealing that "I am still very ticked at some people at my last job."

So, I have a tough assignment ahead. An assignment that will eventually lead to more freedom and forgiveness as I process and let them go.

14 comments:

  1. AnonymousJune 28, 2012

    JBR YOUR DOING THE CORRECT THING. RELEASING AND GRIEVING YOUR LOSS. FORGIVING AND THEN MOVING ON. WHAT A CLEANSING RELEASE. YOU'LL SEE. YOU'LL KNOW WHEN THE PROCESS IS OVER WITH. STANDING WITH YOU!

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  2. You get angry! I find thats the best way to get it out when people mess with me! You'll feel better and feel justice was done some how.

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  3. I'm praying for you in this forgiveness process. I know you can do it, with the Lord's help, and thus open the door to your own freedom. Good for you for recognizing it!

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  4. It takes me a long time to get over things of course that is just my story. When you are powerless to change something letting go feels like giving up. But holding on doesn't hurt anyone but you. I have been dumped and fired and everyone has gone on with their lives but me. Letting go is the only choice I have.

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  5. It is good to let that anger out and release the stress. Praying for you girl.
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  6. Forgiveness Will make you feel better and lighter. I knew it coz i was abused, mistreated and so on before. But God dealt with them. They too need Jesus so that They Will know d truth. Just look ahead and see d goodness of God, coz people Will always hurt us, that is why we have to forgive 70x7. We forgive to help ourselves. But you are in d right path.

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  7. Praying that God will strengthen you as you face every emotion that you have. There goes another layer...Praise God!!

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  8. This is a good idea - to allow yourself to be angry about what took place. It surely wasn't fair, and shouldn't have been handled in the way it was. I went through this with Aster last year. She introduced me to the empty chair technique ... ask your t about it.

    Sending a prayer out there for you, that all goes well.

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  9. JBR, I may sound strong at times with my posts but there are those times when anger sets in because of the unfair things done and still being done at my work, too. However, this unfairness makes me always depend on Him knowing I don't know what the future holds but He always does. Thank you for thinking of me as we both struggle at work. I will always remember you in prayers. Take care and always be strong in His power.

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  10. Grrrr - getting angry can be a quite a release of emotions weighing you down. I hope your assignment goes well. I understand your frustrations - anger is a really tough one for me to express, too. Wishing you luck on your assignment. Many hugs coming your way, JBR!

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  11. JBR: I haven't been a good internet friend lately. No they did do you wrong. It's OK to be mad!!

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  12. JBR my friend. I don't have to tell what undealt anger can do to you. Let alone a body. Happy that you're going to tackle this. But you're not alone. God's with you. God bless.

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  13. Bad things sometimes happen to good people. We spoke about this at church today. And it's OK to feel bad. But you have to work it through, and God is there every step of the way with you. Helping you to deal with your feelings. And bring you through it. Bless you C

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  14. Thinking of you, my friend. God has taken you by the hand and will not let go no matter what you have to walk through. He is trustworthy and true.
    May He shower you with blessings and continue to guide you as you walk through the valley.

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