Had lunch yesterday with my ex-good boss. I can honestly say "there is nothing there." Meaning, she is nice and all, but nothing in common. I struggle to make conversation. My "likes" have changed. She is NOT on the same page as I. Though I am respectful with what she has to share.
If anything, meeting up with her shows me where I am presently at with my anger issues still. How I was treated with my "lay off."
I had my moments yesterday when she would bring up certain things going on. So, I am still working on forgiving people there.
At the same time, my mum is copping an attitude. Trying to place blame and shame on me because I will not spend all day with her today. Dictating what "we" would be doing. I told her no. I set the time first thing in the morning I would come over to see her. In the past, I never stayed for this holiday with her anyway. But, that does not matter to her. Anger and resentment issues as well rise high within me with her too that God and I continue to deal with.
Going over there on the premises, "These are her issues, not mine." "Her fears, not mine." The NOT MINE is the crucial part I need to soak into my being.
So, I have my full armor on when I go over there today. As it will not be easy.
Anyway, everyone enjoy your holiday! I will!