"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Wednesday, July 04, 2012

ANGER GAUGE

Happy 4th

Had lunch yesterday with my ex-good boss. I can honestly say "there is nothing there." Meaning, she is nice and all, but nothing in common. I struggle to make conversation. My "likes" have changed. She is NOT on the same page as I. Though I am respectful with what she has to share.

If anything, meeting up with her shows me where I am presently at with my anger issues still. How I was treated with my "lay off."

I had my moments yesterday when she would bring up certain things going on. So, I am still working on forgiving people there.

At the same time, my mum is copping an attitude. Trying to place blame and shame on me because I will not spend all day with her today. Dictating what "we" would be doing. I told her no. I set the time first thing in the morning I would come over to see her. In the past, I never stayed for this holiday with her anyway. But, that does not matter to her. Anger and resentment issues as well rise high within me with her too that God and I continue to deal with.

Going over there on the premises, "These are her issues, not mine." "Her fears, not mine." The NOT MINE is the crucial part I need to soak into my being.

So, I have my full armor on when I go over there today. As it will not be easy.

Anyway, everyone enjoy your holiday! I will!

17 comments:

  1. JBR Happy Fourth of July to you! You're doing fine. You're dressed for battle. Knowing what lies ahead. Remember our God goes before you. God Bless.

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  2. Hey Grace, just wanted to stop in and wish you and yours a very Happy and Safe Fourth! Blessings to you today my sister!

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  3. You are doing so well in these healing processes and I love how you allow the Lord to teach you through them. I pray His blessings on you day today!

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  4. HaHa that picture is funny. Hoping you have a good day with your mom.

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  5. Enjoy today and continue to grow.

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  6. HI GRACE -- anger is a powerful, all consuming emotion, which, for the most part, only harms the one feeling angry. And resentments? They are so burdensome to carry. I will pray for your freedom this independence day from anger and resentment.
    Love to you
    Gail
    peace.....

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  7. I hope your day went well today, Grace. Recognizing that you have those angry feelings is the first step in dealing with them and getting rid of them.

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  8. It sounds like you've been dealing with a lot recently, but dealing with it well. I hope you continue to stand strong to what you know and believe in. Thinking of you ...

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  9. Happy 4th of July to you hon! Hope you had a great day.

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  10. Anger can easily swamp you, welldone for not standing for it! :) God's grace is enough. Hope you enjoyed the holiday! God bless! :)

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  11. I hope everything went okay with your mom as you visited her. Hang in there JBR. Always be strong in His power!

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  12. AnonymousJuly 05, 2012

    HOPE ALL WENT WELL YESTERDAY WITH YOUR MOTHER. YOUVE HAD ENOUGH PRACTICE WITH HER BY NOW AND GOD'S STRENGTH HAS GIVEN YOU THE POWER TO CONQUER! PRAYING THAT GOD WILL GUIDE YOUR HEART IN THE DIRECTION THAT'S BENEFICIAL FOR YOU.

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  13. Jbr hi. havent been here in while. Hope you doing ok? God is good.

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  14. Hope all went well. Hugs.

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  15. Hi Grace,
    I hope you had a good 4th. It was kind of hard for me - I pray for true freedom for all of us so much. May the lord bless us all with both physical freedom AND spiritual freedom.

    Hugs!!

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  16. I like how you have moved forward and can look back seeing the difference. How I wish you and your mom could just hang. I will pray for that.

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