"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Tuesday, August 14, 2012


"The Deliverer is more interested in us getting to know the Deliverer well... than the deliverance." - Beth Moore

Over these past couple of weeks I have been experiencing what seems to be the worst emotional breakdown for me.

Even though what may look like on the outside as someone in deep distress and in need of some serious help at times, I know on the inside if I keep my focus on my Heavenly Daddy I will be okay.

I am experiencing a tremendous challenge in trusting and having faith in God and not fearing what I am seeing in the natural regarding my own personal circumstances. Very hard!

All I can say is that the Presence I seek from my Heavenly Daddy is the key.

The last leg of "this particular" journey which I feel will propel me into freedom, comes with an all-out high price of seeking my Heavenly Daddy first and foremost. Taking fully to my spirit the truth of what Matthew 6:33 means:

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

It took all I had to post these words to share.


  1. JBR your honesty is always refreshing. The power of your words to pinpoint exactly what you're going through and put it into words for the layman is a gift. I'm sorry and then I'm not with what you're going through. You know yourself have claimed that God is the answer and many times going through pain is unavoidable. Painful as your journey has been, you encourage me and many that read you that you're a fighter. One who wants to receive her reward and goal of freedom. God Bless.

  2. I'm sorry that you are going through times of tribulation JBR. But as you said, this testing will only strengthen your faith. Remember that old saying, "The strongest steel is forged in the hottest fires".

  3. Sometimes God even allows our desert season so we rest in His covering and presence. Praising God for the courage He has given you to speak the words He has called you to and to continue moving forward when it would be easy to just stop. Blessings JBR!

  4. By being so transparent, you are opening the door to great healing. I love how you wear no masks. Praying for you, my friend~

  5. Hello,
    can I just encourage you by saying this scripture has proved real in my life. Years ago I read 2 chronicles ch. 1 about Solomon asking God for wisdom and knowledge, and that was all I wanted to ask Him for. I cannot imagine having all the riches in the world and not knowing Him. He has brought me through many trials, and when I have been weak I have been strengthened by His word. Hold fast to that which is good,His word,it is truth and has the power to bring into existence that which does not exist.

  6. When our emotions begin to speak to us we have to deal with them and remember if it's a bad one it came from the enemy. God allows things to come our way to get our attention and often times when I find myself in this place I ask Him okay Lord what is it that you are wanting my attention. Other times it's for my growth and we know growth can hurt other times it's to purge us and make us more like Him but what ever it is know it's for the best and He'll get you through it. AMEN

  7. i love your honesty. i just had an image of a pit...and you may feel like you are falling forever. but at the bottom is a super trampoline. you'll fly just as fast as you fell... :)

  8. (((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))

  9. Sorry for your struggles jbr. I'm sure God will get your through.

  10. Appreciate your bravery in sharing JBR and love that quote from Beth Moore.

  11. Oh, JBR, I will be praying for you to keep your focus on yourHeavenly Father. I believe He is the answer. I am trying to keep my focus on Him as well and not be distracted by the world. Prayers and Blessings to you!

  12. Thanks for coming by today and leaving a comment on the Lord's blog. In return I want to tell you that you certainly aren't alone in your struggles. My mother was a victim of child abuse. Her step dad raped her every night of her life for 14 yrs while her mother drank herself into oblivion in the next room. It caused her irreparable damage. She is unable to allow my own dad to get too close to me. In my mother's mind her own dad chose a child over his wife so she thinks her own husband will chose me over her. She has ran interference between myself and my beloved dad all my life. She's been unable to bond with me and although I love my mom very much, I can't feel her the way a lot of daughters feel their own mothers. My mother has never told me I'm pretty and she's never sat next to me while I cried and brushed the strands of hair from my face. She's never held me and told me that I would be okay. But do you know the beauty of it all? The way God healed all of that and opened my heart to her anyway. She's still that mother to me that she's always been, but it's because of my faith in God that I am not the same resentful daughter to her that I always was. Now, I have the love of Christ in my heart and therefore I can share that with her and show her the compassion that her step dad never gave her while he was destroying that little girl that she was. Please don't stop reaching to the Lord, sister. Don't ever let the enemy tell you that you're broken and can't be repaired. You're so precious in His sight and He only wants to heal you. I hope to see you again on "LOVE FOR ALL" because when I titled my blog, I titled it for that reason, I have love for all. I know the pain of being without it, and so now I have it to give away. You can pour out there anytime and know that there is someone in this world that cares what you've been through and the pain you'll carry for the rest of your life. There's hope in the Lord and He's certainly brought me through a mighty, raging, powerful, painful, storm. The Bible tells us He is no respecter of persons. That means that what He has done for me, He will do for you as well!! Keep going, sister....just keep going in the things of the Lord and you'll come THROUGH the valley of the shadow of death. God bless you and keep you.

    Love for all,

  13. Firstly thanks for stopping by my blog...I'm glad you did and it led me here!

    Secondly, from recent personal emotional breakdown experience I know that sometimes God and therapy strip away layers and as it gets closer to the core things feel worse. But you have to go through that to get better.

    I found it helped to keep meditating on His promises and focussing on my Identity in Him. Remember He loves you. Do what you can....the rest can wait. Be gentle on yourself.

    Ursula xx

  14. Grace, I am so sorry you are going through such a difficult time. God is with you. He is holding you up and will give you strength if you allow him to.

  15. it's normal to doubt when under a lot of pressure, but faith prevails

  16. I love your transparency here JBR; I’ve learned that before I can be content and satisfied, I have to get to the point where I don’t have to understand everything.

    God is good, just, righteous and holy. He’s bigger than your questions, and there’s nothing He can’t fix. No problem is too much for Him. He loves you more than you’ll ever know. And He’s got a good plan for you!! :)

    Blessings and love dear Siser,

  17. Thanks for making the effort to post! There are many of who relate to what you've expressed her! 1 John 3:1

  18. Just stopping by to say hey,been a long time Janice

  19. Thank you for sharing "real"ly! I so admire you for sharing your heart.

  20. And may you be strong in His power and might...Take care JBR!

  21. Hi Grace,
    Reading this brings to mind something I've often thought about over the years: when God is going to heal certain areas He seems to bring the stuff to the surface first. As in, we have trials of some type or other, only to find out that God is healing us all along and using every circumstance to do so. The good news is that if God is with us He brings good out of everything even if it seems very hard as we go through the trials.

    Wow - Kelline's comment was incredible.

    God bless you, Grace.

  22. It is all so hard. When I look back through my life I can always see where God has been by my side. This world is full of evil and there is no way we can live here without our complete trust in God.