"Lay down the mask and give up trying to look perfect. It's like a bald man with a bad toupe'; you're not fooling anyone anyway." - Patrick Means
I love this quote above. It could not be any more precise in its meaning.
Interestingly enough when reaching a successful point in laying down one mask, I noticed there was another one right underneath waiting to be let go.
What I have learned in my "mask wearing" has been that I felt I needed to be someone else to seek approval. I was emotionally hurt growing up. I am sure you can relate.
I was not satisfied and extremely scared with being myself. Who God created me to be. Would you accept the real me? Only because being myself felt shame, guilt, anger, condemnation, fear, etc.
The hurt I suffered growing up distorted the real me. I needed a way to survive. So hiding the real me in order to protect what little was left of my heart, I would revert to pretending to be whoever you wanted me to be.
I became pretty good at faking and protecting my pain that was stuffed and walled up around my heart. There was no way you were going to see it, let alone get to it back then. I was so dead on the inside. A walking shell as I would describe myself later on.
So, although I may not fit in according to the world's standards, who I am today is more honest and real than ever before. Most masks have come down. I may have one waiting in the wings, only because I have not dealt with something as of yet. In time God's healing love will find that mask as well and discard it.
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!