How are you in accepting where you are at presently on your journey? At times I can still find myself struggling in this area. Not as often though.
When I first seriously began dealing with my past, as much as I wanted to heal, I also did not want to face the pain....again!
My t. shared early on that there was a consolation. I was a survivor now. Not a victim any longer. Learning that the initial trauma I went through growing up was the worst part of my pain. Having that little piece of information, helped considerably for me to handle and face what pain I had to in order to get to the next level(s).