and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!
Saturday, November 10, 2012
When I was in denial about my past, I just lived every day by wearing different masks just to survive the memories of past abuse and hurts. Faking life. Covering up my shame, anger, fears, you name it. I gave the impression I had it all together!
No.....I was living "hell."
I was so very miserable, depressed, sad, hopeless, fearful, etc., the lowest I had ever been. I was afraid for myself. I knew I needed to come to terms with my past and face it and be "Real" about my hurts for the first time in my life!
At the same time I realized I could not do this alone.
I needed help.
I needed help in the worst way.
Not just human help.
But God help!
I began seriously crying out to God for His ultimate presence and His divine intervention in my life over four years ago to help me along my journey to freedom.
I finally was ready.
I finally was broken.
God was waiting patiently for the day to hear the words from my lips, "HELP."
I was powerless to help myself without Him.
As I began trusting Him, He then could begin to help me. He puts the right people in my life to help me along. The more I have been open and willing, the more He has been able and healing. Which continues to this day. Not always an easy task. Pain is pain and can be excruciating at times.
But, He is doing something MIGHTY in me which is worth the pain. I feel I become stronger daily. Little by little I am opening myself up and trusting Him more. Growing closer to my Daddy.
There is a special conference called "Eleven," that happens once a year around this time for three days at what I call "The Love Church." One of three churches I attend regularly. It is a conference to awaken this present generation to the hour we live. To press in to what God has to say. Also a time for healing. Emotionally inside. Healing of the wounds that only God can mend. All part of my journey to breakthrough.