and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!
Friday, August 30, 2013
SEXUAL ABUSE-THE FACT
“MYTH: The child could have told someone. FACT: They have been threatened by their abuser. They are afraid no one will believe them. They are afraid they will be blamed. They are afraid they will be punished. They feel such guilt and shame they just can’t. They may be afraid they will cause a divorce between parents. They may be protecting the abuser, keeping the secret from someone they love.” The Right to Innocence by Beverly Engel
From what I recall, my older brother who was four years older than me, began sexually abusing me when I was around 9 or 10. Even though I only have a handful of memories, which even one is too much, of him molesting me, the damage was done.
Being both of us were children, he told me when I inquired "why?"... not to tell anyone and that he wanted to become a doctor.
I kind of remember asking him or confirming with him a couple of other times before he began molesting me, "so you want to be a doctor?" Some how I thought if my little girl's mind could wrap around her heart what he was doing was justified, the shame she felt, somehow she could handle feeling so uncomfortable when he touched, probed and had her do things to him.
So, my brother's statement to me did the job. Shame prevailed. Into my later years about who I was sexually, shame of my body etc. So, my little girl never told anyone. Until fourty years plus later in therapy. God's was allowed to begin a healing work. Which continues to this day.