"The whole key for me was uncovering and discovering how my belief system about myself and the world, had formed. As I replaced the lies with the truth, the coping methods fell away; because I didn’t need them anymore." Darlene Ouimet
Now, that I am believing more of the truth of who I am in Christ, my dependence can fall on my Heavenly Daddy. Not saying that this is an easy thing.....it is not. I still very much struggle. Especially with feeling of rejection and fear. Coming and going into and through the pain of my past of hurts of fears and feelings of rejection and abandonment is still very difficult for me. It hurts and scares my little one something awful in fear of the sting of rejection.
At times I can even see in my mind's eye a little girl in a hand-me-down dress, straggly hair, dirty face standing and looking and feeling scared, alone and abandoned. Me.
But, at least now I know I have a purpose and a goal in my Daddy as I heal more and more. Conforming more and more to His image and my destiny.
My little girl is finding the fears of rejection and abandonment the hardest to heal. Her earthly daddy really hurt her.
The sexual abuse from her older brother she came to terms with. But, the strongholds of feelings of rejection and abandonment remain really very very very hard and painful to face and heal from.
My little girl wants that awful sick, riled up feelings she feels daily in her stomach to one day cease! Forever! When that happens, we both will know then we have arrived to freedom!!!!!!!
There is going to have to be a Divine supernatural breaking in me! Because in my own little pea brain of humanness, this pain is so unbearable at times, I cannot see a way out myself.
Freedom belongs to you dear one!
ReplyDeleteGrace, as you replace more and more of the lies with truth, you will be more and more free of the pain. I know there are times when it is very difficult, but don't lose sight of the wonderful progress you've made. Hugs to you!
ReplyDeletePraying and praying for the Divine supernatural healing for you.
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Grace - if you continue to look back to what was after your journey of discovery and truth it will bring you down. It is time ot look forward to the freedom you have worked so hard to achieve. You are NO longer abandoned, rejected or misplaced, YOU belong......
ReplyDeleteLove Gail/Annie <3
peace....
Praying for you that those awful feelings you have will be replaced by God's total and complete peace.
ReplyDeletePraying for you precious one.
ReplyDeletePrayers being sent your way, dear heart!
ReplyDeleteBlessings~
Laura
Grace,
ReplyDeleteOur God is both divine and supernatural, and does not reject or abandon us when we seek Him. He has the power to heal both physically and spiritually. All have sinned and come short of the Glory of God. We each have sinned in different ways and the One we all sin against is God Himself, and yet He still wants all of us to have our minds renewed in Christ. The description of His way of loving in 1 Corinthians ch. 13 is how He wants all of us to love.
God bless you as you continue to put your trust in Him.
Sick lies, right? From our spiritual enemies. Praying for the Lord's arsenal of weapons to always guide you and protect you. Be strong always...In His mighty power! Have a great Tuesday my sister.
ReplyDeleteWhen a person goes through immense suffering or dreadful experiences, there is a sense that they appear inexplicable and without reason, and perhaps they are. But putting these things to God means He can wash away our doubt, anger, guilt, the feelings of being dirty, the frustration and even the helplessness of many things people go through in life, and also the sheer injustice that is a part of the world's system.
ReplyDeleteIt may be that your testimony will help other people come to terms with their own horrendous experiences. I put what happened to you as bad as anything that has ever happened to anyone. Maybe you should write these things down in a book, dispassionately and honestly, so that one day it might help other people. Get closer to God and hold on to Him! I will say a prayer for you tonight.
this little girl is so cute....so sorry for the pain....I hope it gets better
ReplyDeletePraying for you, my friend. There will be a breakthrough - God always finishes the work He has begun and He loves you with an everlasting love :)
ReplyDeleteMay the grace of Our Lord Jesus Christ and his peace be with you and may his deep abiding love wash away your pain.
I am so grateful that our God is able. By ourselves it is far too complex. He promises freedom!
ReplyDeleteHugs and wishes JBR for a wonderful weekend. Hope it shines in every way for you.
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