My emotions are all over the place today. As my hormones continue to be wacky, I feel unbalanced and agitated. To the point I want to rip someone's head off. Have not felt this way in ages. So, I know this change of life is probably the culprit. I am in an antsy writing mood. Earlier I posted a much more negative post and now this is where I am presently.
I still find at times wishing my agonizing journey would be over with. Many times feeling alone, helpless, hopeless and defeated. Only to remember how far I have come. From someone just a few short years ago who had no boundaries and could not speak up for herself. To someone now who is beginning to have a voice. Although how small.
Realizing daily as I grow in my belief of who I am through Christ and what God is and has been doing through me. Comforted to know that even Jesus in his humanity did not escape pain. In fact He suffered tremendous anguish as He faced the cross. The friends He thought He had, fled during the most painful time of His journey. Left Him there to struggle on His own.
Still, Jesus never abandoned His journey. Sure He questioned His Father to let this cup pass Him by. As He knew just how painful what He was going to do would be. But, He was committed to go through His pain for us. He was committed although alone at times, to have the courage to press on. To press on for us! To finish His journey. Knowing the end result would lead to Freedom!
JBR - if you were to abandon your journey which road would you find yourself on?
ReplyDeleteLove to you\
Gail
peace.....
I'M SORRY YOUR FEELING THIS WAY JBR. AT THE SAME TIME YOUR ABLE TO PRODUCE A POWERFUL POST WITH A WONDERFUL ENDING TO HOPE.
ReplyDeleteJBR I know you cry out to Jesus to help you. I know that is the cry from your heart. You come to Jesus because he is the only one who can help you. To Jesus, your life is an open book. Jesus knows you individually and has always loved you. He sees what weighs heavily on your heart and what pains you. Sorry for your struggles. May that load be lightened as well. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteI like the very last word freedom! I can hold onto that and run with it. JBR hang on. Hope your new year will be much better for you. Me to.
ReplyDeleteI find Christmas a very emotional time also, and with your health issues it must be especially tumultuous JBR. Great you can recognize how far you've already come. Christmas blessings to you.
ReplyDeleteBlessings!
ReplyDeleteDo you turn your comments off after a few days?
ReplyDeleteI wanted to say on your last post that changing our mind thoughts is hard. It takes time and practice. That is what my daughter struggles with. Changing here OCD/BDD thoughts to happy thoughts. It can be done, don't ever give up because you are worthy.