“When someone is unrelentingly critical of you, always finds fault, can never be pleased, and blames you for everything that goes wrong, it is the insidious nature and cumulative effects of the abuse that do the damage. Over time, this type of abuse eats away at your self-confidence and sense of self-worth, undermining any good feelings you have about yourself and about your accomplishments.” Beverly Engle
I know this all too well...... I grew up in a household of criticism. Now I find myself once again in an environment at work in extreme criticism and controlling......
I totally forgot about how relentless my boss and co-workers operated. They thrive on finding fault. That is what they talk about and gossip about all day about this one doing or not doing that. Making fun. Mind you I am in an office of only five people. So, it is hard to escape and hide.
It was like my Heavenly Daddy blinded me to their ways in order for me to accept this position once again. Their criticism, control and the stress of the job is the reason why I left in the first place. I originally thought and remembered I left out of boredom. That is not the case now.
Upon my return, it did not take long for my boss to find fault with me. My boss is a woman and naturally I am seeing a lot of my mum and even father in her.
Then it amazes me that they thought of me first to get in touch with to come back? Go figure?
Now, I know why I am back. Not only to gain an income, which I so desperately needed, but to be stretched tremendously in the area of self-worth. Something that I struggle with a lot.
Oh this leg of my journey is gonna be painful for my little girl.
BUT GOD....... But God and only God can heal the deep wounds of my heart!!!!
JBR I'm sorry you're put into this position. From your post you're realizing the reason behind it for your purpose in healing. Wounds that need healing are often very painful as the scab forms. The infection surrounds the scab with a redness until it heals. God will see you through. There's purpose in our pain. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteGod brings us to face our fears and teaches us within the situation He brings us into to overcome them.
ReplyDeleteHon, God has brought you to this and He will bring you through this. He knows you are ready for this and He will help you overcome in the areas that you need to.
ReplyDeletePraying for you dear girl.
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I'm sorry to hear that you have to put up with such a negative work atmosphere, Grace. It's hard to focus in those conditions. Praying for you, my friend.
ReplyDeleteOh Yes, But GOD!!! He has placed you there for a reason. GOD knows you can do it. HE believes in you. Amen!
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Blessings to you
Chelle
Remember if people are mean it says something about them and not you. Gossip and back-biting is hard to listen to when you are a Christian. I pray God will help you with everything.
ReplyDeleteBut God!!! Yep that says it all. Wishing you a beautiful weekend JBR....
ReplyDeleteBUT GOD....... But God and only God can heal the deep wounds of my heart!!!! ...amen amen amen..going through the same thing also at work...my goodness girl..we definitely are on the same road on this journey!~
ReplyDeleteAsking God to bring you peace.
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