"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Monday, April 20, 2009


Tonight I just feel miserable. I know this will pass, like other times of recent. But, I truly hate going through feeling strangled inside the pit of my being and my soul crying out literally to the Lord, as I am down on my knees to take away the unhappiness, loneliness and the overwhelming thoughts of present. I know this is all part of the journey and brokenness, but at the same time it hurts like hell!!


  1. Thank you for sharing with us the trials you have gone through. He reveals to me that the situation you are in as you described here is well fit in the first few verses of the book of James, which i have read through last night. It is no accident that I stop at your blog this morning. For everyone easy reference, please I be allowed to quote these verses,from New King James Version, here:

    1:2 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials,
    1:3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience,
    1:4 let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.

    By now, you can clearly see that your situation is exactly fit in the verse 1:4, i.e. the patience is the in the process of perfecting the work.

    Thank God.

  2. Finally FreeApril 20, 2009


    I pray for this dear one tonight....that you would hold her in your arms of love and comfort her during this trial. I pray your holy spirit will bring her peace through the night while she sleeps.

    Thank you Father for your love and comfort,

  3. I am so sorry for your pain.

  4. I fully respect the prayer peeps, and believe in the POWER of prayer. In fact, "Real", you don't have to believe in it yourself, for it to work.

    However, I'm gonna be more on an earthly plane right now and ask, do you have phone numbers you can call of people who understand really about what is disturbing you at this time?

    I'm hoping (and praying!) that you have some support, I wish I could lay out my phone number here, but just better not. However, fiddlemn@gmail.com will work. NOTE, there is no 'a' in fiddlemn. Try it, I'm easy to talk to, I have references on these blogs -grin! Really!!!

  5. There have been times when I have begged God to help me. He always hears and always answers....sometimes quickly and sometimes more slowly.

    You can feel free to contact me anytime at oneprayergirl@gmail.com

    Communicating with another recovering woman can be so helpful. I would be honored.

    Love and prayers,
    Prayer Girl

  6. You aren't alone in your hurt tonight. My prayers are with you. Somehow we'll make it through this. And thank you for being so real. It helps more than you know.

  7. I'm so sorry you're struggling so much right now. If you could see yourself the way I see you with such strength and such faith.
    You have brought me comfort so many times and I see you, through the background of this forest, through the trees.
    And what I see is an amazing survivor with the strength of Goliath, and the compassion of Paul.
    Wishing you peace and a light in this moment of darkness,
    ~ Grace

  8. For I will restore health to you, and I will heal your wounds, says the Lord, because they have called you an outcast, saying, This is Zion, whom no one seeks after and for whom no one cares!-Jeremiah 30:17

    I'll be praying for you. You are not alone.

  9. Thinking of you too, JBR.

  10. hugs honey. i know how it can hurt...

  11. I'm sorry you are hurting

  12. I'm sorry to say, what I'm going through right now feels like hell, too. At least we're not alone, right?

    Safe hugs to you, kind person (((((((((((JBR))))))))))

  13. Hope you get better.

  14. Thank you all so very much!!!!!