"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Saturday, July 18, 2009


I want to thank you all for your uplifting words to me. I really hate to sound like a broken record, but I sincerely appreciate everyone of you. Honestly speaking, I just do not have the strength or brain power to respond to each one of you personally at this time.

I discovered a song today (which plays when you come to my blog) by Sanctus Real. The lyrics are powerful and best describes what I am going through presently. This song hit me between the eyes when I heard it.

I felt led to go to someone’s blog that I have not been to in a long while today. Then out of a list of over 30 songs on their Playlist, I chose this one to listen to and it was “Whatever You’re Doing.” I mean the title could mean anything. There were other songs with ‘catchy’ titles that could normally catch my eye, but for some reason I was drawn to this song. Never ever heard of Sanctus Real before in my life until today. I obviously needed to find this song, and I did.

We are all at different parts in our journey and I believe that we can relate to this song no matter what.

You will find yourself within the words below. I have. And I want to try and share as best I can what each stanza means to me:

Whatever You’re Doing

It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender

Pretty much we all can relate to the first stanza with our difficulties and struggles in life and how much we have been broken in spirit, mind and body. Hopefully, we are all on our quest to freedom and healing and to make right what was wrong. The line with the ‘wave crashing over me and all I can do is surrender. . . .’ for me personally means giving up my struggles and letting God have me fully to work inside and clear out all the pain.

I am slowly getting there.....but not yet......

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly

Turmoil, turmoil, pain and more emotional pain. I can say I have glimmers of peace once I come down from a crying spell. All the while I have been saying, “take it Lord.” You must realize I am not saying, “take it away from me Lord.” I believe I must learn and go through the pain in order to gain. Gain my freedom. What I am saying is that I am asking the Lord to take the moment that I am releasing to Him.

“It’s hard to surrender to what I can’t see.” That line holds such truth. Still, to the best I am able I believe the outcome of my breakthrough will certainly be something heavenly!!

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender...

Okay, when I think of a milestone, I am thinking of a “reference point” along a road, or in my case along my journey. ‘To re-evaluate who I really am?’ All I can say is that I am in the process of just finding out who I am. I cannot honestly know at this time if I am doing everything in following God’s will. I remain scared to surrender fully. Do not want to give up complete control.


Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears

I think I am beyond the “facing up” part as I have admitted I am broken. I am in the process of cleaning this old house from negative tapes, stinking thinking and beginning to deal with painful memories that have been buried so deeply inside of me all these years which is bringing on the tears!

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly

God’s mighty hands are performing surgery within me constantly. Unfortunately a lot of the time without anesthesia. At this point, as I have shared in past posts, I have no clue what is going on, but something is definitely up.

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This is something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly
Something Heavenly

Definitely something bigger than me!


  1. AnonymousJuly 18, 2009

    Wow, what a great song. I love when a song speaks to me and makes me feel like it relates to me and is helping me.

  2. That's a great song with powerful lyrics! Thanks for sharing. I'm blessed by your post and had asked the Lord what I could write for "Spiritual Sunday" and I heard "surrender", "heart"...which I found in your post today! Awesome! Love the statement that picture brings!!!God bless JBR! Have a great weekend.

  3. hang in there ok. Sarah

  4. Yaya, rcubes and sarah, thank you all for your comments. rcubes, glad you were inspired for your writing for Spiritual Sunday.

  5. One of my favorite. I hear it on the radio all the time on Klove.
    God bless,

  6. Amazing lyrics! Thanks for sharing. I love how a song can bring you to a place of comfort and hope. Wonderful post.

  7. Only God can rebuild walls broken in the past. I am blessed by your honesty and openness. God is using you while He heals you. Have a blessed evening.

  8. Linda and septembermom, thank you for your first time visits and comments. Amen Madison. It is only God!

  9. thanks for stopping by and leaving a comment. it's great to meet new bloggers. i have no idea what you are going through (i will stay and read awhile though). it's obvious you're on a difficult journey towards healing, but you know the ONE who heals!

  10. Great posting!HUGS MY FRIEND!

  11. Yep, there is One Who heals...sometimes He uses us to complete His work here. We cooperate, and God does the rest.

  12. Beautiful post and song, sweet friend. You are a treasure. I am thankful GOD brought you into my world. I am blessed to have crossed paths with you. GOD continually amazes me. Journey on with your precious Lord...He has amazing things for you!!
    Blessings and prayers, andrea

  13. Thank you for being so open, so raw... it helps other people on their deepest levels also. Including me. I've been going through this process over the whole of last year... I just felt like I could relate to you so much in what you said here in this post. Maybe different circumstances, but the rest of it just sounds so familiar. ((((JBR))))

  14. Sheryl thank you for the visit and support!
    Jena, Andrea, Stevie,and Mike, your comments and support are certainly welcomed! You all are appreciated, thank you.

  15. Something bigger and more beautiful. I believe God has as amazing restoration in store for you. Hold on, He is near, working in ways only He can see.

    God bless your journey. You are not alone.

    I love this song. Reading the words made me realize why...

    Enjoy your Sunday!

  16. Great song...Just blog hopping tonight and found yours. I have enjoyed reading it..


  17. Beautiful, I really needed this in this stage in my life....please excuse me, I have a tendency to wear my heart on my sleeve :-)

  18. God is going to do a powerful work in you sweetie, keep holding on.

  19. JBR that song does have some deep meaning. I can see where you're affected by the words in relation to your healing. Good find!

  20. Very poerful and beautiful. U are getting there. HUgs to you. Keep you in my thoughts

  21. AnonymousJuly 19, 2009

    A lot of thought went into this one post. You've really narrowed it down to what the words mean to you at this time. Makes following you more clearly. Great job!

  22. Oh I ADORE this song. Maybe 6 months ago someone played this song in church, and it just really struck home for me. It is incredible.

    Glad to be part of your journey here.

  23. This group is great! Great choice of a song that touches not only your heart but others.

  24. Thank you all for your response!!

    Yes, the song is powerful and interesting some of your are familiar with it and feel the meaning behind the words.

    Teresa, thank you for your first vist and comment.

    DarkWings you can be as real as you want with me!

    I appreciate your hugs and prayers, you are all too kind.

  25. I'm familiar with this group also. I think they've been around since the early 90's? Powerful stuff.

  26. AD and Ron thanks for commenting. Well, I guess I am behind the times just now discovering this band who has been around over ten years. Oh well, better late than never, thanks Ron.

  27. Thank you for posting this song and how you felt about each verse. I can surely relate. Al-Anon is helping me Let Go and Let God.

    Betty Ann

  28. Betty Ann thanks for your visit. Glad your journey is leading you to let go and let God!

  29. Thanks for posting these lyrics. I can relate to every word and find that the journey never ends.

  30. Jan PetersJuly 19, 2009

    I'm with you. I've not heard of this song before. Listened twice this song over and read the words you posted. I can relate. Just like everyone else there is a piece of me in there.

  31. jBR-the problem is knowing where we belong. kowing what is right and God's will and true voice. so many voices bleding through. such a loud, crowded world. Thaks for the uplift. ~rick

  32. Diane, Jan and Rikki, appreciate your visits. Diane,I agree, we will always be on our journey, until we are called Home. Rikkij, glad you were uplifted. Good Jan, at least I am not the only one who has not heard of them until recently.

  33. Beautiful song and post. God bless.

  34. What amazing song lyrics... It is so true that in the midst of our chaos, we can still feel peace. Praying for you!

  35. Colleen, Tola and God's girl, thank you for your visits and comments. Glad the song touched your hearts.

  36. My dear JBR, just breathe, close your eyes and follow that dream. Climb the hill,on the top you'll be able to see a wider horizon and to see more clearly. Sometimes I have these doubts too, terribly painful doubts, but I must bear in my mind that I'm walking the path that God chose to me.

  37. Thanks for the beautiful song. Your writing about the verses made the words universal feelings we all share.
    God Bless you on this journey.

  38. As Simple as a song with words of meaning that can reach into our hearts is such a wonder! Happy weekend!

  39. Peepers and Lou thank you for your comments to the song. Sylvia, one day things will become much more clearer for us and I certainly do understand the painful doubts! :)

  40. AnonymousJuly 19, 2009

    I have only a few minutes right now and can’t read your post yet, but I wanted to stop by to say thanks of you kind note you left on my “Country Road Take Me Home” post. Yes, I am really not a John Denver fan; I did not even know that both of the songs were his. I just remembered hearing them when I was very young, (3rd/4th grade) and living in the country. I love country, and I love home, so I just used the word because of the memories.
    I’ll stop by and read as soon as I can.

  41. AnonymousJuly 19, 2009

    Your reply to the lyrics show how much the song has affected you. You're right when you imply that we all can see ourselves within the words. Neat post! God Bless.

  42. Hey Hope, that was a while back that I posted that comment. Only reason why I remember it is because of the two songs your mentioned. I know you have been away. Thank you anyway.

    Onthewaynow, thank you for your visit and reply to the lyrics.

  43. AnonymousJuly 20, 2009

    “I remain scared to surrender fully. Do not want to give up complete control”

    I know what this is like. I was there for MANY years with my own struggle. It was just at the end of last year that I have been able to surrender my life completely to God, putting my trust in Him. It was always difficult for me to let go of control and really TRUST God. Of course, it is a daily process, with new challenges continually arising.
    Keep surrendering. :)

    Isaiah 40:11
    He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm, and carry them in his bosom, and shall gently lead those that are with young.


  44. That song was exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you. I really appreciate it.
    Hope you are feeling better.