My time with God these past few mornings has been really agonizing. Crying my eyes out with such a desire to please Him and not other people!! I hate to sound like a broken record, but this is such a struggle for me! Hard to face the outside world and not put my people pleasing skills to work. So very difficult!!
I know without a doubt there is freedom waiting for me!!!!I know God will honor my heart's desire! I look forward to this day!!
I just hate going through the emotional pain!!! I hate having to come to terms with the pain of rejection, abandonment, loneliness and the like! Feeling these feelings more now these days with such intensity, it just flat out hurts!!!!!!!!!!!! I have been so comfortable with who I have been!! Because I know no other JBR than the one that survived all these years with coping skills. But I am learning now through all the pain I have to go through that there is a JBR that God intended to be originally!!!!!!
And that JBR is on the cusp of breaking out!!!!!!!!
Breaking through will be an awe inspiring experience. Looking for that day along with you.
ReplyDeleteI look forward to being here with you when you break out! I bet it will be loud and colourful!
ReplyDeleteBe blessed. I don't know what you're going through, but I know you are deeply loved.
ReplyDeleteSuch a sweet release it will be! Freed from bondage at last... I'm praying for you JBR! Love you, girl.
ReplyDelete"All of my
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I surrender these
into your hands.
For it's only in
your will that I am free"
-Robin Mark, All For Jesus
Freedom does await you JBR! Hold onto that truth. Have a blessed weekend. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteIn a relationship with God yoou have a choice. You can be gold or you can be feather. God will accept either equally kiddo.
ReplyDeleteI wanted to be gold for time, a rather long time, then I realized that gold is heavy and hits the ground much harder than a feather.
Choose the feather it is designed, by the same God that designed gold, to sail on the winds of storms.
Be Well
What's the Word? Weeping may endure for the night but joy comes in the morning. I'm sure your morning is beginning to break through and I am happy for you. :)
ReplyDeletelove this picture and that last line. I hate the feelings of rejection, abandonment and trying to figure out who to trust and not to trust. When you figure it out can you tell me how to do this without so much craziness. Stay strong BR. You're awesome. Sarah
ReplyDeleteEmotional pain is the catalyst that drives us to God, who promises He is close to the broken-hearted. His peace is beyond human understanding, isn't it? Odd how one can feel such misery but still know within that the Lord loves us and is refining us like gold in a fire.
ReplyDeletePraying for you every step of the way.
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