"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Saturday, November 28, 2009


Here is part 2 of my Thanksgiving Day.

"Has your heart been broken? Your spirit crushed? Nothing cuts to the core of your soul like rejection. Even death, while devastating, doesn't compare to the pain of knowing you've been abandoned. Rejection chips away your self-image, chisels down your confidence, and leaves you feeling hopeless and unworthy as the horrible message repeats again and again: "You are unwelcome. You are unwanted.

The enemy has only come to lie to us, kill and destroy us. The rejection we receive is ultimately from him — the person who outwardly does the rejecting is merely a pawn in his game. That rejection is a lie! Over time we begin to believe that lie until it finally becomes truth in our hearts. We can live a lifetime believing that lie. We can spend years and years covering for it, with pride, fear and rebellion. And these build walls — walls that imprison us — and isolate us from the ones we love.

We must refuse those lies that our enemy instilled in us. We must do the rejecting now! And then choose to believe God’s truths about us. That we are loved, protected, healed — blessed in every way."
(Worthy Devotions)


How I know the pain so very well!!!!

The infinite times I have felt rejected in my lifetime from my parents, friends, classmates, even people I did not know very well.

I perceived a friend rejecting me on Thanksgiving. Found out later, like times before, I was wrong. Unfortunately, that is how my rejection cycle goes. Many times it holds true, and many times, I am mistaken. Either way, I am led to believe I have been snubbed/rejected and I put myself through such torture.

Any of you who knows the sting of rejection knows the painful feeling within of unworthiness that follows hand in hand with the doubt and the anger.

So, I took the bull by the horns, and I repeated many times, Romans 8:1-2 and then "trying" to release these lies to God. Easier said than done. Constant reminders popped up in my mind through out the day of unworthiness and the like. So, I kept counter-acting these lies with prayer, Scripture, and praise music.

I know this new conditioning is not going to be easy! Changing my belief system will take time. And the pain will hopefully one day become less and less as I grow in the assurance of God’s love for me and the assurance I can be my own self and not worry what others think of me.

That will be a day of freedom!!!


  1. I used to be a people pleaser. It simply puts them in a place of control over you. The only One worth pleasing is our Lord.

    Allow God's Word to penetrate your mind. I have 3X5 cards with verses written out. I pull out my card when I need to remember the Truth. I replace the lies of the enemy with the Truth of the Word.


  2. Every day is a new day for God to remind you how special you are to Him. With those days, it WILL get easier. I promise!

  3. All we need to do is choose to please God sweetie.

  4. Being rejected isn't the difficult part. It is knowing you told the truth to try and warn people about something and then having them not believe you when you were honest and just trying to protect them from experiencing the pain you went through.

    I found out a secret very few people know about and it tears me up inside because I feel as if I am marked inside the head with something. I sometimes feel like a used piece of toilet paper with people only coming into my life just to use me for what they can get out of me. And then I finally met someone who didn't use me, for once, and then I discovered their perceptions were being controlled by evil people.

    I don't want to sit here ranting over what I have been through, but nobody knows just how much I have been mindraped for the last three years of my life.

    I don't even know who to trust anymore. I just don't know.

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  6. How amazingly fitting finding this blog post at a time when I have been crushed by someone I love, for allegedly being something I'm not. There is no talking to people sometimes, and in my attempts to defend myself, I found myself throwing my hands up in despair and saying that he was right just to bring the hurtful argument to a close. Many hours after that I spent thinking about it and on several occasions I reached the point of believing that he must be right and it is I don't know myself... It's so destructive, and I will not allow it to happen.

  7. God is our defense in everything we have endured and will endure including rejection. He has always been our defense. And it is our decision whether or not to call upon His Name in our time of need and allow Him to arise and demonstrate His great power.

  8. Dear one:

    We can be glad for the one who watches over us neither sleeps nor slumbers and also has promised to never leave us. I know sometimes we ache for a human being to be real and sit with us and that our God seems distant and abstract but then HE IS THERE. Only with that comfort, we move on in life.

    Thanks for sharing this. We all go through times as these. These times show what a greater god we possess.

    Joy always,

  9. You wont let doubt blocks your way now, I'm sure you'll move on. You're on the path which will get you to freedom, with a few ups and downs.
    Thanks for sharing JBR.

  10. I know my last few comments may seem direct and pointed but I make no apology for them.

    I do have a question you need ask yourself.

    Why do I feel that I must be universally loved and respected?

    I was liberated when I finally realized that no matter how hard I tried or wanted love and respect from others universal love and respect was not going to happen. Liberated in the sense that I then was able to accept that if you wish to accept me as I am that's cool, if not then *shrug* get out of my life.

  11. Good to read that your realizing the lies and working on the truth. Keep at it! God Bless.

  12. Interesting post, considering I actually asked my Mom if I could come to their Thanksgiving this year and she said "no". She instead invited me to dinner Wednesday night (without the rest of the family-who all hate me). It's hard. I told my family about the abuse and they hate me and think I'm crazy. I know I'm right.

  13. Thank you all for your comments!

    YaYa, I sent you an email!

  14. Sounds like you're on your way to experiencing full freedom. I love your determination and strong spirit...it's inspiring! Thanks for sharing. This is a beautiful post!

  15. No it is not easy. I had to do the same thing this week.
    Blessings, hugs, and prayers, andrea

  16. I can hear the chains of rejection breaking......

    Awesome devotional!

  17. I likes your post. Rejection has hit my home many times so I know what you're talking about. Your trust in the everlving God is a welcome sight to overcome.

  18. Rejection is hard. It eats at the core of our being. We need to replace it with what God says about us. You are doing good. This was a great post.

  19. I love this post. Yes I see freedom for you. Keep up the practice.

  20. Be strong in yourself, your faith, and know that you are worthy. Sounds like you made a positive outcome of what would usually be a negative!

  21. I'm behind in my blogs! Sorry! I read a book recently called The Furious Longing of God. I so encourage you to read it if you haven't. I found a copy at the library. Author is Brennan Manning. He write about a nun who had horrible things happen to her and how she feels about herself. He tells her to repeat to herself, "Abba, I belong to you" many times every day for 30 days. It means, Father, I belong to you. I've been doing it and I have seen an increase in how I feel about myself. Just sharing in hopes you find relief and peace.