"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Monday, December 14, 2009


I know for many, this time of year can be very difficult. There are increases of suicides and individuals going for counselling seeking help because of feeling extremely depressed.

Christmas has always been difficult for me to enjoy. As far back as I can remember, once my parents divorced and I spent my last Christmas with my father before moving away the following month with my mother who just recently re-married it has been a painful memory. My family was split apart. My mother's new marriage with someone who really did not celebrate Christmas and even the yearly visits after the divorce with my father during Christmas were never the same. New people were introduced into my life from both sides that I had no control over. But had to endure as a child.

Sure I know the true meaning of Christmas, and I am ever grateful for that!

In time, I pray my heart will once again return with the excitement of a child waking up on Christmas day. But, for now I cannot wait until the season is over.


  1. I totally understand, but more importantly, God understands.

  2. I'm sorry about your pain and hurts, I pray Christ's birth will bring you new meaning, new beginnings, a healing and in time peace to your heart.

  3. Sweetie as Denise said, God understands. IN time.

  4. I totally get it. It is a difficult time for many.
    Blessings and prayers, andrea

  5. A friend told me to focus on the quality of each task as I do it this Christmas season, to remember WHY I am doing it. That advice is helping me. Maybe it will help you.

  6. Sometimes the holidays can be a burden rather than a blessing. For some reason our family goes into meltdown mode - could use less of that myself!! Hoping for a peaceful happy and Christ filled holiday for you JBR.

  7. I can so relate. I too am glad I know the real meaning of Christmas. We can hang on together and pray for the joy of Christmas to return.

  8. I'm right there with ya. I totally understand.

  9. Xmas is hard for me to. Hope this one will be better for you.

  10. Merry Christmas you sweet angel. May you be blessed so abundantly and the peace of Christ encircle you completely.

  11. Hey JBR,
    There's a lot of people who find this season painful. Praise the Lord we know the real season, and it's not some empty notion of 'tis the season to be jolly.'
    It will be over soon, just take the days one at a time.
    God bless.

  12. Oh your feelings are felt by so many in the world today.....I always loved Christmas then there was a time I dreaded it and now I am back to loving it again....give yourself time and always remember the true meaning of Christmas and enjoy the family you have now.
    ......:-) Hugs

  13. This made me so sad for you. I am praying God, in His goodness, would delight you this year with His presence.

  14. Oh, yes...He knows and understands....