"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Friday, December 11, 2009


I feel I am experiencing a meltdown. Total one or not? I do not know. Will have to see. I hate these rollercoaster rides!!!! Up down Up down Up down Up down! I hate this part of the journey! Just let me get off!!! I feel empty and depleted. Hibernating sounds so very good now.


  1. Father may JBR experience your love, your comfort, your arms in a very real way today. May she know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you are present in her pain. That you will not allow her to bear more than she can stand. That there is a purpose in the pain, though it does not feel good. That your arms uphold her, and you will not let her fall.

  2. Boy oh boy do I agree with you!
    I'm in a meltdown of my own in regards to shame and grief. I so want to go to sleep and walk up in the middle of January and escape the holidays. Blessings to you dear one... may you feel peace.

  3. Hoping you rest and are able to get off the rollercoast quickly! ((JBR))

  4. Oh sweetie I'm so very sorry. Praying for you.

  5. Hang on JBR... as you said, you're on a ride...and what goes down is also going to come back up! ESPECIALLY because YOU ARE HIS and you are loved, today, tomorrow and forever!

  6. ((((JBR))))) I used to love roller coasters until my life became one :-)
    You are loved by so many...and I hope the *ride* stops for some respite.
    ~ Grace

  7. During the meltdown, stand strong. You are loved and not alone.

  8. JBR I'm sorry your experiencing some difficulty. Hope for a quick recovery. Your to special!

  9. Praying for God's peace and presence......
    In Him.....GG

  10. When things are difficult my reading of the word increases. Sorry your'e having a bad time now.

  11. May God strengthen you in your time of need.
    “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.”
    Isaiah 43:2
    “And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”
    Matthew 28:20
    God Bless

  12. I'm better..TY. I understand rollercoaster.. the trend of my posts look like that ride .... A strong faith is what we need, only with that would we stabilise - always in the face of God.
    Be strong.

  13. Hibernating might be the best thing then.

  14. ((((( JBR ))))) Can relate totally! Thinking of you and send you good vibes and even more happy worms.

  15. I feel the same too. I've been frustrated, anxious, upset you name it I'm feeling it. I feel like an emotional eruption, or like you say a “meltdown.” Feeling so emotionally overwhelmed by unpleasant feelings that I can no longer control them or hide them from others. I'm here with you listening and feeling your pain.

  16. Praying peace and protection over you this weekend.


  17. Hey JBR - the rollar coaster isn't fun but it will bring you back up.Praying...you're never alone....and He's got you right in the palm of His gentle hands.

  18. Hibernating is good. It restores the soul. A minister I love once said that when you are depressed you do 3 things:
    1. Get up
    2. Eat something
    3. Go out
    A lot of people add to that:
    4. Do something for someone else.

    May this day offer you opportunites to level out and be at peace.

  19. Just remember, God is on that rollercoaster ride with you, love you.

  20. Thank YOU for being real. Praying for you today.

  21. I have popped in to thank you for your visit, I am happy I did. I love your truth and raw honesty....I am sorry you are having a bit of rough time right now....this too shall pass. I also think this time of year can be bitter/sweet for all of us. None of go through life or live without hurdles, may God bless you and ease your restlessness at this time. I will be back to check on you......:-) Hugs

  22. Take a time out. Reflect and relax.

  23. Hibernating can be a very good thing. So can a roller coaster ride that ends with new discoveries and healing. I hope that's what's in store for you with yours.

  24. Lot of wonderful advices in the so-far 26 comments
    but all I will tell you is that I am reading you, and I am here. And I pray also...for you today!

    May God show you the way, using one of the Peeps as His voice. Listen to the Peeps, that's how God talks to ME, too!

    Blessings. Peace.

  25. I see many comments of comfort, as well as many who are in thee same place as you. Together, these must give you a strong indication that you are not alone, if you are thinking in the worldly sense. However, the other power of all powers, our Heavenly Father is there, watching over you and waiting for your to graph hold of Him. And if you hold onto Him, the ride will smooth and the waters will become calm again. I am staying with you, JBR, I KNOW you can make it through this!!! I'm counting on you!!

    Be strong, be faithful, have trust in Him!


  26. Hey JBR,
    Once I wrote,
    "There must be Light outside! I can remember it!
    And other people I see everyday walk in it.
    But how do I get out?
    How do I get to the Light?"

    Jesus is the Light, rest in Him.
    He understands what you're going thru, and these up & down phases do end.

    God bless

  27. Oh boy do meltdowns make us feel so out of control and alone. They push us away from God and let our emotions drive our thoughts and feelings. Keep your focus on Him. Through the chaos and pain he is calling your name. You will get through this, JBR!