"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Sunday, January 03, 2010


With God's guidance I am trying to break away from people pleasing. Been praying for the right direction. I am sure the majority of us will agree consciously or subconsciously from time to time we may think the world revolves around only us. I know I do!

At at this particular time, I welcome this thinking. Only because I feel it will help me to realize that others who I am trying to please have issues in their own lives and "I may be the furthest thing from their minds. They have no clue that I am even struggling or exist at the moment. That it is not always about me!!" Harsh sounding? Yes. Painful emotionally? Yes. But if this little bit of thought change can help towards my recovery, then I am willing to go through the pain.

These past few days, basically isolated from the population, (more than usual) meditating and preparing my heart to face the world once again tomorrow will be challenging. I am scared. Which is probably natural, as I do not know what to expect. Hopefully though, I will be stronger and rely on God much more than I have before and putting to use what He has shown me these past few days.

I hope this made sense?


  1. You always make sense to me. You speak from that very deep place that I understand.


  2. I think you're amazing. Sarah

  3. Courage is not a matter of not being afraid. It is a matter of doing what you need to do in spite of being afraid. With God, courage is much closer. I will pray for courage for you in 2010! As for God's presence, I know He is with you!

    Happy New Year!

  4. God is ALWAYS with us in ALL WAYS whether we feel His presence or not. I commend this post and your courage...don't forget to breathe something I have been working on consciously the last couple of weeks...focusing (for me) on the in and out breathe and then when I really need God's peace I focus on the eternal pause between the in and out breathe, that spit second...that for me is where God's Spirit lives!! I will be lifting you up to THE Creator of all things this week..thank you for Being REAL. Love and Blessings! me

  5. Ah yes, a post of courage. To be afraid and still do what is best for ourselves. The days when I wake up and my first feeling is fear I reach for God. God please be with me today.

    To feel the pain of finding out the truth about ourselves, wow what an amazing place to be. So many people just never will.

  6. ...and you are so right JBR, when we think people are looking at us or thinking about us, they usually are not. It's what WE feel, not necessarily what THEY feel. Undoing thinking processes and changing old familiar reactions are still one day at a time, and with each new step forward, the next will follow, even when there are lapses...

    You are moving forward, I can see it! You're the safest of all when you remember you BELONG to Jesus... and HE is gently holding and leading you...

    Monday hugs for tomorrow!

  7. I find you to be an amazingly brave woman.

  8. I get it!! Sometimes, I just need to meditate with GOD to gather strength to face the enemy and stand strong.

    Blessings, andrea

  9. this post spoke directly to me. People pleasing is an issue that I am trying to overcome..not as easy issue!! You helped put it in perspective!

  10. “Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If we quit, however, it lasts forever.”
    Lance Armstrong

    Praying for you always!


  11. You make perfect sense to me. Your tyring to heal and find ways to do you properly.

  12. i so didn't want to face the world today. it felt that, although i'm physically moving forward this day, the strings of the elastic band are stretching taut, wanting to pull me back into a coccoon... yet, here i am, in the day, the bands have lessened in strength a bit, and i'm sure will continue to do so. for now, all i can do is do what i should, the fear will fade, it will...

  13. Jbr, our Lord Jesus is the source for every thing that we need. Our job is to stay connected to him. You're doing great. God Bless.

  14. A lot of my people pleasing revolved around my family. I actually a year and half not talking to them to break myself of this unhealthy habit.

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  16. When the Lord reveals something in your heart that may make sense with you and not to us, still, what matters most is your willingness to be transformed and be changed by Him...Stay strong in the Lord's mighty power JBR! Have a great week.

  17. Yes, you will become stronger, and happier, pretty soon now.

  18. JBR,

    I believe God is speaking to your heart with this request to keep it real on your end. People pleasing never leads to anything good. There will always be someone that is never happy with what you have to say, however if you make it God pleasing, He will always bless you in whatever you do.

    Love and Hugs ~ Kat