"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Sunday, March 07, 2010


I have been pretty much out of it this weekend with a migraine. I will not even attempt church today.

I was not even able to go meet up with my friend yesterday. I waited to the last minute to cancel, because I wanted to see if my migraine would be better. I did not want to take the chance to drive such a long distance with this pain. So I ended up calling her. She is very gracious and understood as she gets them worse than I.

But, I oh wanted so much to go!!!

Through this, I learned something yesterday. How to squash the guilt trip the enemy uses that crept in my stinkin' thinkin' right away saying, "ahhh, you could have gone. You are not that bad."

In the past, I would have "forced" myself to go sick and all. Tough it out. In the end hating every minute of my decision. As I would not be able to enjoy my time as I would have liked and also in the past forcing myself to go because of my past thinking "they will not like me anymore, I must keep up the front" and then end up getting worse the next day because I did not take care of myself.

So, despite it all, I see growth in taking care of my needs and not worrying what others think. It was hard. As through out the day, I had to constantly fight off these negative thoughts with the Word of God.

But, I was able to! Amen!

I am going back to bed now...... Zzzzzzzz


  1. You know JBR I can relate to that, I used to do that, put others always first before me, always felt guilty if I had thought of my own issues over another's or I would think that I should not spoil the other person's plans even if was not upto it.

    I've learnt to let it go and come to terms with it. Love yourself. No more guilt, I put myself first when I have to.

  2. Progress means growth, I'm happy for you.

  3. Sorry about the migraine, but pleased you put yourself first. Driving an hour there and an hour back yesterday could have been dangerous. Take care and sleep off that migraine!!!

  4. I hate those nasty migraines. Praying GOD heals you from them and you are fully restored.
    Blessings, andrea

  5. That is no problem, God doesn't go to church, people do. He is with you if you want Him to be.


  6. Can relate - endure migraines myself. Glad to take care of yourself and even better that you fought off the negative thoughts - it becomes easier over the time to fight the neg thoughts off. It really does. Hugs and hope you feel better soon.

  7. When you are honest with yourself, you begin to lose the guilt, as I see happening with you. God isn't the one who expects you to go while you have a migraine, and once we begin to grasp that, we become more free to say yes or no. We answer to Him, and He wants us to be honest with ourselves, not for anyone else...

    Good going JBR!

    Sunday hugs!


  8. {{{{{JBR}}}}},I know where you are with the pain of migrains.That is one of the things i live with after a seizure.and sleep helps me with them.

  9. I feel for you. I use to get them all the time. Food allergies caused mine and hormones. I hope you are healed. I had to learn those same life lessons. In my case it was inaccurate theology. Lots of codependence. God's love is so healing. Bless you.

  10. I am a people pleaser. It's taken me years to learn I can take care of me, too. If you friend is a good one, she will understand. I hope you are better.

  11. Praying for you to feel much better.

  12. Feel better, JBR. I'm glad to hear you're taking care of your needs.

  13. Hope your migraine has improved. Wish you a good and calm start into teh week.

  14. You told my story today. Sleep well, my friend. Hope you feel better soon. Hugs.

  15. Sometimes it is one day at a time, one hour at a time and one moment at at time. The important thing is the healthy attitude that you are developing about guilt and yourself.

    Thinking of you today.

  16. Growth takes just putting one foot in front of the other. And when you have no strength to walk, our Lord Jesus is carrying you!! You will get to the other side sister and be stronger than you could ever imagine. I truly believe that.


  17. I am so glad you didn't go and are learning to take care of yourself, fighting against those negative messages and doing what was right for you! I am proud of you, and glad you are feeling better. Janie