"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Tuesday, March 09, 2010


"We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. And we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete." 2 Corinthians 10:5-6

God I feel I am going through a particular season once again.

I feel I have been here already and the cycle is repeating itself.

I know where this repeating of this cycle began, from Saturday. Where I am reaching out to others, which is a new beginning for me, and having high hopes of meeting up with a co-worker that were squashed because I had no control over the situation as I was in physical pain. I was blocked!!! Something I do not like! God is showing me this, and we are working on overcoming still these weaknesses, i.e. failure, lack of worth, etc.

But, I do not want to go through this pain again.....

I am trying to be strong. But admitting, I am not Daddy!

The little praise I have, seems to have gone out for now.

I question why? Why? Why? Why?

I am hurting!

I am crying!

I want to hide.

I feel I am weaker, but I know I am not. Through my trials, I continue to grow, if I am willing. And Yes I am willing!!

I know all these negative thoughts are not from You but from the enemy. I know I will come through with Your help!

Is Satan trying so hard because he knows how close I am to a breakthrough?

God give me the strength and help me to take captive the deception of Satan's lies about me! Help me to look to ONLY YOU and no one else! Help me NOT to take in what I may perceive to be negative and can effect my day as I go out into the world! Help me not to become offended!!

Help me to replace these lies with truth that I am worthy, You have a plan for me, and help me to hold on to believing that You do love me.

I need that reassurance!


  1. Blast the music, praise God, He is worthy - even when we aren't. Take care.

  2. stuck-in-the-middleMarch 09, 2010

    JBR hang in there. Seasons come and go. This one to will pass.

  3. Asking God to help you through this season, love you.

  4. I know you are in an uncomfortable place.
    I know.
    God seems to bring me back to places where I have been before, and it does at times feel like there was no progress forward, but I know too that is a lie.

    You are not dealing with this issue in the same place as you were before.

    I wonder, since we are in a different place on our journey when He does this, if we see it a little clearer, a little differently?? Or there is just more work to do.

    Can you find some joy in the midst of this???

  5. Keep your focus on HIM.
    Blessings and hugs, andrea

  6. Real why is this cycle repeating? What's going on and how can it be stopped--- is it the thought patterns, actions, or something else... when you discover why the cycle is there---- FREEDOM is around the corner... stomp on that devil---remember he has already been defeated...

  7. Pray you find peace through the sure mercies of our Lord....I can relate to your feelings... Satan is a liar and the father of all liars..he desires to destroy us all and he knows in the end your testimony will be powerful.....rebuke him...in the name of Jesus....blessings

  8. Sweetie praying for you.  God has you  in his hands.  Remember that.

  9. If you recognize Satan, then you know he never gets tired, never gives up, is "open all night"


  10. You can do it, you have come a long long way , it has all been your work, the almighty is still holding your hand.


  11. Is there a way you can just "be you" and trust the outcome of EVERY situation be in God's Hands? He IS in charge, NMW (No Matter What)!

  12. Yes girl! Keep thinking positive and I will be praying that God will help you to keep in a positive mindset. I know that it is hard because I struggle with it too. However, it sounds like you know what the truth is, thus you are on the right track! Yay! :o) Funny I went through the same thing a couple of weeks ago. I started to feel really bad thoughts creeping back in. The only thing that will stop this is the renewing of the mind daily. Anyhow, I have some scriptures to share with you that have really been helping me out... so I will try and get them to you today. Hold on - help is on the way!

  13. Hang in there, this too shall pass.

    I know the cycle repeating itself in my life only too well. It has helped me to get out and move my body, pump those endorphines in, it helps clear my mind and refocus.

  14. ((((JBR)))))
    listen to the wind...

  15. You can do this! You've gotten through it before and you'll get through it this time as well. You know that. You're doing the right things and know how it's going to come out. That's probably a lot better than the first time through! God bless!!!

  16. Dear friend, I appreciate your real! So many of us struggle to be authentic, and I much include myself. I want real, for I know Jesus is pleased with truth. He is truth.

    May the Lord lift you up during this season. May He encourage your spirit and give you hope and faith for the storm to pass.


  17. I am with you and praying asking God for the same for myself. I am really struggling with feelings of being unworthy and abandoned right now. ((hugs))

  18. Do me a favor OK? Walk over to a mirror and really look at yourself. Now say, God is my Father and I am a child of the king. Say this more than once baby because you are so very worthy. God sent his only Son just for you. The closer you get the harder Satan pushes but knock him down and rebuke him in the name of Jesus.

    I'm prayin' hard for you girl! You are precious!!!

  19. JBR,

    I find that when the attacks come, we are doing the right thing when we draw closer to God. The enemy hates when we draw closer to God than to walk away and hide.

    Please stop by my blog today to enter in the final chances for this weeks giveaway if you have time!

    Love and Hugs ~ Kat

  20. JBR
    You are going to win the battle.God is with you my friend.

  21. Praying this season won't be long and you'll come out of it more victorious than you started. ((JBR)))))

  22. I am going to tell you what you told me the other day. I hear you. Hugs.

  23. I'm beieving with you JBR. I'm believing and agreeing...You're not alone. Sarah

  24. I wish I had the answer to that question. WHY is this repeating? Haven't I gone through it enough? No answers, but there will always be healing. (((JBR)))

  25. "Is Satan trying so hard because he knows how close I am to a breakthrough."...

    Yes! The battle is already won...and he knows it!

    Praying JBR...

  26. hang in there God knows and understands your pain. He'll be right there with you. Hold onto the garment of Jesus. Your healing is at hand. Praise God.

  27. Yes, Satan is the father of lies, a deceiver, and you are recognizing this more and more. It is so interesting that just this morning I spoke out loud, which I am doing now, to the one who wants to kill, steal and destroy, and reminded him that God wants to give me abundant life in all areas, and for me it is in the same areas you are attacked in....I do have to think that we are getting closer to some breakthroughs in our life's and the attacks in our mind seem to be greater, but it's in the recognizing this and remembering what THE TRUTH is and WHO the truth is will help us. You've come a long way baby, and I need to tell myself that as well. I find it's so difficult at times not to go by what I'm "feeling" and to remember His promises. Prayers your way from me to you my sweet girl. xoxo Janie