"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Saturday, April 24, 2010


I was going through some old papers and I came across a yellowed creased copy of a devotional that I kept in my Bible from 1993. At the time I had "the crazy co-dependent roommate" who threatened me and accused me of doing things I never did living with me for two years.

I remember making the copy of the devotional from "The Search for Significance" book entitled "Going Deeper." This particular devotional dealt with self-worth. Even knew back then I struggled with this stronghold. But, the stronghold to please my roommate at the time was much stronger, because of the fear she instilled in me.

This era was especially painful and frightening for me as I had never been blatantly accused of things constantly I did not do. I let her have so much power over me. A type of mind control, where fear played into it big time. I knew no other way.

I was at one point fearful for my life because of her. I kept on referring to this devotional through this dark period for some kind of comfort.

She was the reason I ended up in t.the first time for a year just to get my mind straight that I was not this evil person she claimed I was. Only by the Grace of God did He intervene.

Anyway, I have always liked what the devotional said. So, I share it with you now:

I don't believe that any of us will gain complete freedom from our propensity to base our self-worth on the approval of others until we see the Lord. Our God-given instinct to survive compels us to avoid pain. Knowing that rejection and disapproval brings pain, we will continue our attempts to win the esteem of others whenever possible. The good news is that because we are fully pleasing to God, we need not be devastated when others respond to us in a negative way.

As we grow in our relationship with God, the Holy Spirit will continue teaching us how to apply this liberating truth to different aspects of our lives at an increasingly deeper level. In fact, one evidence of His work within us is the ability to see new areas of our lives in which we are allowing the opinions of others to determine our sense of worth. With spiritual maturity, we will more often be able to identify these areas and choose to find our significance in God's unconditional love for us and complete acceptance of us. However, profound changes in our value system take honesty, objectivity, and prolonged, persistent application of God's Word.


  1. hey like what you said here.

  2. JBR that's a good reminder to all about attaining our self worth through Christ.
    You know one way we can get better at recognizing the lies of satan is to know God’s truth, reading scriptures.

    JBR how about starving the flesh and feeding the spirit. The more we feed the flesh, the bigger this "monster" grows and the more damage is seen. Doing the opposite the "monster" diminishes. God Bless.

  3. i can see why you held on to that...

  4. JBR,

    Just wanted to take a few moments to let you know that you won a book giveaway on my blog, "Should We Fire God?" Congratulations!!

    Please email me your mailing address so I can get a copy out to you right away. Congratulations again!

    Love and Hugs ~ Kat

  5. something that speical for you tokeep all these yrs must mean something. Our God-given instinct to survive compels us to avoid pain. Make4s sense.

  6. This was like stumbling across money I'd forgotten i'd stuffed into a pocket long ago RIGHT when I needed a dollar. The voice of the accuser can be like a jackhammer; thanks for being the song that swallows that sound for my soul today:) Taking a deep breath and grinning again......

  7. thank you for sharing this today and being so transparent. i agree...it is so easy to base our worth on those around us...and quite frankly no one will ever love us as much as our creator. hope you have a wonderful saturday!

  8. Sometimes God sends us messages in strange ways, such as finding long lost devotionals. Hugs JBR! Have a great weekend!

  9. Oh yeah, this one has happened to me as well. Us poor sick children do not know any better and don't know how to defend or stick up for ourselves. I do believe we also subconsciencely "find" these sickos to feed into our own insecurities. They are what is "comfortable" to us because we are use to this sort of behavior. Any other "normal person" would of told this person to take a hike along time ago... or have not gotten into this situation to begin with...but not us..we seem to expect the abuse...But not anymore isn't that right Just Be real!!! oh no not us. that was in our past and we do not take that anymore.!!!

  10. Oh yeah, I'm not home yet.

  11. Great devotional. Keep holding on to it. And keep clinging to God.

  12. A close friend gave me Search For Significance several years ago and I passed it on to another! I appreciated the devotional; thank you.

  13. Great quote. One I needed to hear! Thanks. Hugs.

  14. Thanks JBR... for sharing that devotional. Praying for a great Sunday for you today!

  15. That feels exactly right. As we grow in our relationship with God... all things are possible.