"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010


Just got off the phone with my brother this morning. They may not be coming Thursday.

My sister-in-law's brother-in-law is dying. Which I knew about. He took a turn for the worst last night. So I just told my brother will do their visit later. But, then again, my brother is not one that can handle people in agony and does not think to support the family during this time, (he thinks of himself) and said that he would come down by himself if need be. (Which he has done in the past and there was no problem)

But, I told him to stay and come down with his wife later on, that she needs his support now as well as her family.

So for now, it looks like they will not come.

He has yet to tell my mother. I told him, it is his responsibly to do so, not mine.

But, we will see, he can change his mind and come down regardless.....


  1. wow....I knew you shared your story of abuse, but I didn't know it was your brother who was responsible.

    I don't really know what to say....but I do know that I am going to lift you up in prayer today.


  2. In Gods plan there's a reason for everything. The delay of your brothers visit may have its reasons. Gods in control JBR. God Bless.

  3. You dont tell your mother on his behalf? Do you know how very great that is? How much you have grown since I met you first? I am so freaking proud of you. Love from my heart to yours.

  4. And I'm freaking proud of you as well. Taking care of yourself. Keeping the responsibility for telling your mother where it belongs. Love hearing how you are growing.


  5. im glad the visit might be called off.
    you are under no obligation WHATSOEVER to see anyone! including them, me or ? anyone else for that matter..
    the sooner you realize you are the master of your own ship, the better. you owe nobody anything. you are a free agent with free will and can do whatever you like. just like the rest of us :)

  6. Sweetie the timing is not right. Enjoy what God is going to show you.

  7. You have grown so much, very proud of you.

  8. Did you hear my sigh of relief? This is how my family is, too. My brother didn't sexually molest me, but he tortured me most of my life. They all act as if I'm weak for not being able to "take" a little teasing. Hang in there, tho, and stand up for your self (and take your boundaries with you!)

  9. You're wise in offering your advice to him to stay with his wife and her family! I can only imagine how she would feel if he went on without her..

  10. Praying for all!

  11. God's plan has a reason for EVERYTHING!

    Praying for you, Precious One!


  12. WOW! Just WOW! God bless!

  13. Everything in God's perfect timing. This is not the time. Bless you dear one.

  14. I'm sorry to hear that your sil's bil is dying, I will pray for her and her family. I hope that your brother stays with his wife to give her comfort. I'm happy that there is chance that this visit will be called off, gives you more healing time. (((HUGS))

  15. Everything happens for a reason ... you are conquering mountains, more than you think! God be with you, and follow your heart. It's in the right place!


  16. big sigh of relief here in California!! Sounds like your whole family joins in on "teaseing" the sensitive one...how sad for them...how unfortunate for you. Take care of your own sweet self.

  17. Everything happens in His perfect time. But the awesome thing, like everyone, your courage is so evident in putting boundaries :) Take care JBR! God bless.

  18. It feels like to me that you have drawn another line in the sand to protect yourself sweetness. I am proud of you and sorry for one of your family member's illness. And you are right, he should be with her and he should be the one to tell your mother. You go girl! love, janie