HEALING BEGINS

I woke up to this song playing on my radio.

WoW!

What prevented me initially from facing my fears is letting my secrets out. That I was sexually abused by my brother. That my thoughts were so impure. That I felt such tremendous shame I must be this awful person. Hated myself. Having such a poor self image of myself, I certainly did not need reassurance that I was a nobody if I shared my hurts and deep pains. So, I kept quiet for so many years living in my own private hell wearing so many masks to cover up my agony.

I share this song for any out there who are just starting or thinking about starting their journey into freedom!

It will not be an easy road. I am still on my road, but so much closer to the entrance of freedom's door.

So, I encourage you to take the big step.

If trust is a factor, I certainly do understand. But, you have to come to a place within yourself where you are going to have to trust someone, if you want help. Where you are sick and tired of being sick and tired of living the way you have. You will have to become Real.

I still struggle with trust. I struggle with trusting God still. But....

Trusting in God is so important to me. He sets the tone. He brings the people into my life that are good. He also shows me through some trials, some very painful, who I can still trust and who I cannot. He is there to pick me up when I am wailing uncontrollably in emotional pain. Seeking professional, preferably Christian counseling is also recommended.

May this song bless you:

So you thought you had to keep this up
All the work that you do
So we think that you're good
And you can't believe it's not enough
All the walls you built up
Are just glass on the outside

So let 'em fall down
There's freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We're here now

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark

Afraid to let your secrets out
Everything that you hide
Can come crashing through the door now
But too scared to face all your fear
So you hide but you find
That the shame won't disappear

So let it fall down
There's freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We're here now
We're here now, oh

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark

Sparks will fly as grace collides
With the dark inside of us
So please don't fight
This coming light
Let this blood come cover us
His blood can cover us

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark