"Yet a time is coming
and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23

My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.

Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.

Daddy let me be secure in You only!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010


This video hurts so bad in desiring what I want!

Lord I cry out desperately to You now!!

Lord Take Me All The Way!!

Lord let my heart take over my mind!!

Lord heal my pain from my earthly father's neglect that I stuffed for so long!!

Lord help me to connect to this pain and hurt!!

Let Your love of passion consume me!!

Your child wants to feel You!!!

Lord I do not know what love is!!!

Please, let me know what love is!!!!


  1. AnonymousMay 18, 2010

    I pray that you're heart be reattached to feel again. God Bless.

  2. Jesus loves you....I am praying that you can have the peace and comfort that only He can give us. God bless, Lloyd

  3. AnonymousMay 18, 2010

    Here listening and sending hugs to you...He hears our cries.


  4. love me some matthew west...
    he's right there...

  5. Sweetie this is a great song. Even I'm blessed by the words. I believe we will be growing in his love until the day we die. We probably won't even knowt the full extent of his love. Praying you do feel how much he loves you.

  6. Love this song...praying for His great love and compassion to consume you and clear any doubts as to what true love is....

  7. Praying with you,

  8. AnonymousMay 18, 2010

    Hello Everyone! I came across this blog when I googled "Recovery from Childhood Trauma." I got sober and saved twelve years ago but it's only been in the past two years that I have gotten in touch with some serious abandonment issues from childhood. The church has only disappointed me, repeatedly, so I have been able to find some very good secular help... very good. A lot of understanding and healing has occurred. But I am left with a spiritual challenge today. The church is not a safe place for me to talk about these things (not real enough for me) and my perception on God has shifted. I think I'm ready to begin integrating the spiritual component of my person back into my life, but so much has changed... I have changed. So, I am curious about this blog. Can someone help me understand the process and everything? Is there a distribution list or something? Is there a daily devotion? Thank you sooooo much for your authenticity and openness and willingness. Truth does set us free, and witnessing the courage others have to be truthful can be a catalyst for others to step up their own plate and do the same. Looking forward to input. Thank you so much!!!

  9. You remain in my thoughts and prayers. Love and hugs to you.

  10. Josh Taber/Gold CoastMay 18, 2010

    Thatsong is powerful. I can associate with my recovery as well with the meaning. Praying that you'll be spoecially touuched by God.

  11. AnonymousMay 18, 2010

    Praying 4 you at this time.

  12. AnonymousMay 18, 2010

    Thinking of you,

  13. May Jesus cover you with His precious love.

  14. Any person who searches for their truth as humbly as you do just has to get there! You are inspiring. Thinking of you and sending warm hugs (((((((((JBR))))))))))

  15. I am praying this with you!

  16. JBR,
    When the bad memories surface have you tried bringing Jesus right into these times in your life? What I mean is:
    With your heart and mind see Jesus healing and loving little JBR and big JBR. I actually ask Him to cover whole periods of my life with His precious blood which was shed for each and every one of us. I ask the Holy Spirit to give me light on where I need to forgive, too. My father was an alcoholic, bipolar, and had other problems, my mom worked all the time so we pretty much raised ourselves. Believe me...havoc reigned! I had to forgive so much. Still do. Jesus wants to make us whole, I really believe this. I am praying for you. It's obvious He is doing a lot of work in you and one day you will bloom because God loves you so much. I know the pain is hard to bear in the meantime but God will bring great good out of your wounds for the restoration through Jesus Christ is powerful.
    Oops. I didn't mean to be so longwinded, JBR. May the peace of Jesus encompass you.

  17. JBR,

    I remember when God used this song to minister to me. I love when He does the unexpected in your life to let you know, YOU are not alone in this world. He is standing by your side in every single second. Let His love overflow in you.

    Love and Hugs ~ Kat

  18. Pain from an earthly father's neglect, I hear you, dearest JBR.

    This is a verse that has always brought great comfort to me, Psalm 68:5, "A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling."

  19. Oh friend. How I wish I could help lead you to feel that love and healing. You are so beautiful. Your words an expression of hope.

    thanks for writing, and for being there for me too.


  20. You are on your way to healing JBR, Christ is already there for you, just feel him, just reach out and touch.


  21. peace, love, and faith,
    may your wishes coming true!
    Happy Wednesday!

  22. stuck-in-the-middleMay 19, 2010

    JBR hang in there.

  23. AnonymousMay 20, 2010

    JBR, I love this song too. Keep trusting in Him. He hears your prayers. Thank you for sharing such real emotions.

  24. Sorry for your pain, sweet JBR. Yet there is love and healing in the air. Hugs to you

  25. I like what Paula said...yet there is healing in the air. Stay strong JBR....He's got you in the palms of His hands...and He's not letting go.

  26. AnonymousMay 20, 2010

    Step into the light and see his glory illuminated with the love he has for you.

  27. AnonymousMay 20, 2010

    Thinking about you JBR. Hopeing things are better for your this day. God Bless.

  28. Sweetie checking in on you. Haven't seen a new post.

  29. AnonymousMay 21, 2010

    For some reason your comment section doesn't let you post a comment. You have to directly click on the title of your post to get the box. Enjoyed reading your blog from time to time. Uplifting and compelling to say the least. Thanks for being real. Your in good hands with God.

    Victoria Sayzwick

  30. Amen! just prayed a similar prayer on my front porch where i do my praying every morning. i find it wonderful that at least we can cry "help" to God....believing he hears our prayers and will give us the faith that He answers them. Lord help our unbelief. love, Janie