SLOW DOWN

Seems all through my life I have been in a hurry. A lot has to do with my upbringing. Rushing through projects most of the time because I wanted to please and be noticed. I desired acceptance any way I could get it. Later on in life I would hurry a lot due to being anxious, angry, frustrated, and still have the tendency to want to please, oh yeah!

The song "Slow Down" by Chuck Girard captivates me. I finally found the full version on the internet. Took awhile. I am praying that the link will work for you all! It should load up and play right away.

The song to me is a very powerful. I took to heart, but really did not apply to my life.

The song was recorded in 1975. Before I even became a Christian. And some 13 years later I heard the song the first time on a local Christian radio station around 1:00 a.m. as I was just dozing off from a long hard packed filled day. I fell in love with the song, but not its meaning.

At the time my life was so full with busyness. I was involved full time in the Deaf Ministry at my church. Involved in church activities. Involved with a major dysfunctional co-dependent relationship which took a lot of hard word to maintain. Involved with so many on-going sport activities, softball, volleyball, and bowling that kept me busy close to 24/7. I was at the lowest for my weight, and loving the attention it brought. I felt important, noticed and worthy.

Had what I thought were friends, but in reality were not. I did not build on the relationships, as I did not know how. I certainly knew how to use people though. I was just there soaking in whatever attention I could suck out of them. Even the opposite sex. Knowing all along in my mind a relationship was not going to happen. I would string the guys along then drop them. Oh I could put on an act. I wore so many masks back then. When those masks would be on, I would even amaze myself. I could be such a bold and determined fake individual and do things and say things that I knew really were not me just to be accepted. But, the constant work at keeping up this front was exhausting.

And all the while in the back of my mind I knew this "fast paced self centerness lifestyle I was leading" and seeking after would one day come to an end. Which it did. And it was not subtle. Talk about a crash and burn. And I was a Christian mind you!

I knew I was racing here and there, enjoying the fast pace and what attention it brought. Although at the same time knew deep in my heart I needed to slow down. But did not. I just "liked the idea" I could slow down.

So when I heard this song I loved the song and played the cassette non stop for really the beauty of the music, forget the lyrics.

Now, if you would ask me today if the song means something to me, I can honestly say, "yes it does." The words are very meaningful to me and my relationship to God. I am in the process of trying to apply them as I continue on my journey. But, back then, nah the words were just words! I thought I was applying the words to my life, but I was not. I did not want to give up the "self glory."

Click on the link below.

Slow Down by Chuck Girard


This song really is very slow and beautiful. I love the violins. In fact there are really some good songs from Chuck during this time period. It really is a great CD.

In the midst of my confusion
In the time of desperate need
When I am thinking not too clearly
A gentle voice does intercede

Slow down, slow down, be still
Be still and wait, on the Spirit of the Lord
Slow down and hear His voice
And know that He is God

In the time of tribulation
When I'm feeling so unsure
When things are pressing in about me
Comes a gentle voice so still, so pure

Slow down, slow down, be still
Be still and wait, on the Spirit of the Lord
Slow down and hear His voice
And know that He is God
And know that He is God

.................................................................................................................................................... I Got The Joy!